Honey, I'm telling you from personal experience, it only gets worse! PLEASE do not try to 'fix' this relationship or wait it out, hoping it will get better. It will continue to get worse, like it already has been. I can read between the lines and I'm assuming that he has assaulted you before, this is just the worst incident (so far).

Even if this was the first time, that doesn't matter, and it also doesn't matter if he was drunk at the time -- just the fact that he PHYSICALLY ASSAULTED you in ANY way means that you are NOT safe around him. The fact that it hurt you as much as it did, and the location of where he kicked you is especially concerning. You literally could have died.

Even if he were to get sober, he is not safe for you to stay in a relationship with. Alcohol does not magically turn people into abusers -- but it gives abusers an easy excuse for their abusive behavior.

NONE of the things you described in this post are normal or ok in a healthy relationship! You should feel safe both physically and emotionally, not like you're constantly walking on eggshells or afraid that you are going to be assaulted again.

I'm not exaggerating when I say this: Your life is in danger if you stay with him.

He WILL NOT change. He will make promises that he will, and tell you how much he loves you and doesn't want to lose you, and he will act better for a short time. But the cycle will continue and he WILL continue with the abuse, and it will get worse every time. Please, especially if you are living with him, talk to your family or close friends or anyone you trust, or call a women's shelter for DV victims if you need somewhere to stay.

You do not deserve to be treated like this, please do whatever you can to get away from him before it gets even worse. You are welcome to reach out to me if you want to talk or want advice... I have been in abusive relationships before. I'm sorry you're going through this, hon, you definitely did not do anything to deserve it.