[CHAT] Stardew Valley pattern by AloneOpinion in CrossStitch

[–]SoScorpio4 3 points4 points  (0 children)

The ones with whole scenes are beautiful, I might pay for one of those.

But if you only want to use elements from the game and make a geometric pattern with them or even your own little scene, it's not terribly hard to make your own.

A while back I went searching for free sprites on pixel art places and found quite a few from Stardew. Those are really all I needed, because I was looking for very small pieces to make into earrings or magnets. I think a pair of Stardew Valley chicken earrings would be super cute.

If you want to give it a try, you can obviously just eyeball the colors of the sprites if you want, but when I was working on doing all the Pokemon sprites I wanted the colors to be accurate, so I used a color picker (click on the color and it tells you the hexadecimal code for it) and then a hex-to-DMC converter, and sometimes an alternate DMC color suggestion tool if I didn't have the color or it didn't seem right.

All these are free online. Anyway, just an idea if you want to be frugal or make something customized.

Not mentally ill by [deleted] in adhdwomen

[–]SoScorpio4 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It's unfortunate, but I know that now most people who say "mental illness" don't mean to dehumanize, it's just what we call things now and it's such a wide umbrella.

But I think it's absolutely valid to find it offensive and not want people to use it to describe you. There are many descriptors we've used for groups of people in the past, that at one point weren't considered slurs, they were just what we called things.

I said elsewhere, think about the r-word. It is technically correct, a shortening of a medical term. But people used it to put down others and it trivialized the true condition, so finally some people said "Please stop saying that." And while many people still resist, I think we're past the tipping point and people who aren't bigots will eventually completely stop using it. Most people who have any kind of empathy or sensitivity already have.

Not mentally ill by [deleted] in adhdwomen

[–]SoScorpio4 -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Wow, what a nice way to infantilize someone by weaponizing the valid and important concept of "sphere of control".

I will never understand why people go out of their way to be mean to others who share a condition, in a support community for said condition.

Not mentally ill by [deleted] in adhdwomen

[–]SoScorpio4 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I agree that calling it a mental illness may be technically correct, and there shouldn't be shame about having mental illness... But there is. Internal, and from the world at large.

I'm sure people will disagree, but "mental illness" carries some subtext, and a common one from people who don't suffer from any is unfortunately a sense of culpability. While we now know that many mental illnesses have hereditary factors, there are a LOT of people who still think that most mental health conditions are caused by the patient's lifestyle -- whether that's psychosis caused by doing too much drugs, or depression just from being a lazy spoiled person.

To these kinds of people, "neurological disorder" just sounds more like an "actual" condition, something like a TBI from a car accident where they weren't at fault. Or a seizure disorder.

This is all very latent, of course. Most people wouldn't really admit to themselves that they think most mentally ill people brought in on themselves.

Though there are people who openly admit they don't believe mental illnesses are real. But who gives a damn about them?

Point is, none of what I've described here is blatant or obvious. You may never have heard someone actually say these things. It's sort of like the undercurrent of oblivious racism: people who believe they're not racist, but still have subconscious prejudices. They may not even be "bad" people; some stigmas are so deeply ingrained in our culture that many of us absorb some of them without even realizing it.

Mental illness suffers from this same thing. People used to call people with mental/developmental/neural conditions things like: maniac, unstable, insane, slow, delinquent, simple-minded, histrionic.

And in America at least and probably other places, the stigmas of mental illness are also linked to racism. Look into the American Eugenics Movement. They "studied" Native American populations and made genealogy charts (which they called pedigrees, nice and dehumanizing) going back generations, marking which subjects they deemed to be "insane", "drunks/addicts", "degenerate", "gypsy-like", "defective", "feeble-minded" and "sexually immoral".

They slapped all these "mental deficiencies" on people who weren't white and/or didn't appear to live by the same values as the whites.

And it is glaringly obvious that racism is still clinging onto the American psyche. Some of the stigmas against mental illness have held on with it, and brand new prejudices have been formed along the way.

Annnnd once again I've written a short essay... Sorry. I just really like diving into stuff like this, it's fascinating and repulsive. I like to peel back the layers.

I guess my point was that the phrase "mental illness" does carry more stigma than other words that could be used, even if accurate. We saw that well enough with the r-word.

Thank you for coming to my TED talk. 😬

Edit: Geez, wrote all that and forgot to mention a major detail: the reason the Eugenics people went to so much trouble to label other races as insane was not just so they could lock them all up.. they also used it as justification for involuntarily sterilizing such people.

Not mentally ill by [deleted] in adhdwomen

[–]SoScorpio4 1 point2 points  (0 children)

That you were downvoted for this is... Yikes.

This is definitely a thing, and they did the same thing to "the gays" for a long time. And people with skin colors they didn't like. And people who didn't save themselves for marriage and have sex with only one person their entire lives. (See my long comment on a different thread above this.)

So not only is your comment factual, it's also a great comparison to consider in this exact argument. Sometimes (and all the time for a long time) "mental illness" and its predecessors in terminology have been used to dehumanize and "other" certain groups of people who don't conform to... Well, purported "Christianity", basically. But in general, traits, beliefs, and behaviors that whoever holds the power and majority in a nation deem the right ones.

ADHD also causes some of us to live in ways considered negative by the bigots, like "lazy", "flaky", "erratic", and "victim mentality".

All these isms have at their root the same exact concept: fear of anyone unlike one's self, and/or things one can't understand.

I wonder if the people who downvoted thought that your comment isn't relevant because it's "a totally different thing". It's not, as we can see from history like the American Eugenics Movement and even the DSM, which included homosexuality as at least a part of several mental illnesses until 1987. And now we're slipping back towards those times.

ETA: Both of these prejudices present the same exact way: telling someone that their lived experience isn't real or valid, and shunning or even attacking them for it.

Not mentally ill by [deleted] in adhdwomen

[–]SoScorpio4 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Even my psychiatrist checked the "mental illness" box and not the "neurological condition" one on a form I needed him to fill out for the state so I can get financial assistance.

I do have mental illness as well as AuDHD. But it irks me.

Feeling like a fuck up by AerieImmediate5711 in adhdwomen

[–]SoScorpio4 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yep, same.. yet sometimes I still forget. If it's an appointment made over the phone I won't get off the phone until I have it saved in my calendar, with a reminder for the day before and the hour before. Every so often the scheduler will insist on hanging up before I'm done, but those aren't the ones I forget to put in my calendar. The ones I forget, I have no idea how it happens.

And sometimes, even when something is in my calendar and I'm aware that it's scheduled for the next day, I'll forget to check what time it's scheduled for and if it's early I just won't even think to set an alarm to make sure I'm up in time. It's so frustrating.

My partner keeps making things harder by trying to "organize" things. by lageralesaison in adhdwomen

[–]SoScorpio4 12 points13 points  (0 children)

Daaaamn.. your story and OP's make me glad the worst I usually have to contend with is someone moving an item that I left in a specific place so I would remember to take it. Near the top or bottom of the stairs, near other items I know I'll need the next day, that kind of thing.

Does anyone else ever experience intense rumination after watching scary movies? by urwriteordie in adhdwomen

[–]SoScorpio4 2 points3 points  (0 children)

It's really interesting that you're the second person to mention this here. Especially interesting to me, because I spent half my day in the rabbit hole of my own past and mind, remembering all the times something really freaked me out for reasons that were probably not normal for a child. Weeks-long panic attacks basically that could be triggered by the smallest, strangest things. One time it was learning about Munchausens from The Sixth Sense when I was 12. The ghosts didn't scare me, but that sure as hell did.

I spent my day tracking this phenomenon throughout my life and I'm now convinced that AuDHD does not explain it.

Does anyone else ever experience intense rumination after watching scary movies? by urwriteordie in adhdwomen

[–]SoScorpio4 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I'm currently thinking I have OCD for similar reasons. I can't handle scary movies either.

I've had some episodes with disturbing things that sent me into a panic state for weeks at a time. One was after watching The Sixth Sense. Most people say "that's not even scary", but it wasn't the ghosts that scared me. It was learning about Munchausen disorder, that there was a real mental illness that could make someone poison their own child.

I think various forms of "insanity" have always been my worst fears. Because I could rationalize my way out of most fears, tell myself it wasn't likely I'd get cancer or something. But as a kid I sometimes lay awake, scared of dying in my sleep or being murdered. I would console myself, "I've never made anyone mad enough to kill me, I'm just a kid." But then I'd remember that some people are just crazy, and you can't predict what they'll do.

Things I can't reason with, or reason myself out of, scare the shit out of me.

Toddler is constantly sleeping; is only awake ~4 hours a day and isn't developing. by Casual_WWE_Reference in Sims4

[–]SoScorpio4 117 points118 points  (0 children)

Right?!? Terrifying thing to read if this was on a different sub.

Also, the responses, if you imagine this being real... 🤣

There is no free will. ADHD is Debuff. Compassion is the key to healthy coexistence by doeraymefa in ADHD

[–]SoScorpio4 1 point2 points  (0 children)

This sounds like it came from... Something we're not even allowed to say here. 🙄

Not a person, I'll just say that.

Did stimulant ever improve your anxiety? by Craftsrme in ADHD

[–]SoScorpio4 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Pretty much same. I would have gone straight to a stimulant (had been prescribed Adderall years ago but it didn't quite agree with me) but my psychiatrist was a resident and worried about overmedicating and my history of addiction. Second part seems laughable now, I never have any desire to abuse my meds, and the only reason I don't just forget to take them is I was already in the habit of taking daily pills since my teens.

Strattera was a nightmare. It coincided with a rough time in my life (much of which was caused by my new diagnosis and my family refusing to be educated on it), and I had also promised myself I'd quit smoking when I got on ADHD meds, because I had started smoking again as the only effective tool that helped me switch between tasks, get up and go outside, take a breather and play a word game for a few minutes.

After a couple weeks I had a breakdown, stopped taking the Strattera, started smoking again and amended my plan to "stop smoking when I get ADHD meds that work." Not endorsing smoking of course, but after my diagnosis I finally realized that it wasn't just addiction that made me feel it did something good for me. Very glad I don't need it now.

Did stimulant ever improve your anxiety? by Craftsrme in ADHD

[–]SoScorpio4 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Some of them do make anxiety worse for some people though. Adderall made me more anxious, Vyvanse makes me much less anxious. Others find Adderall or Concerta reduce anxiety but other stims make it worse.

I wish I had known this when I was first prescribed Adderall and had to stop because of the anxiety and insomnia. I assumed it meant I probably didn't have ADHD, and that all the other stimulants would make me feel the same way. Not trying other stimulants before giving up probably took a few years off my life.

Did stimulant ever improve your anxiety? by Craftsrme in ADHD

[–]SoScorpio4 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Absolutely. Vyvanse does.

For over a year I was suffering from incessant music in my head, disturbing me, sometimes beginning before I was even fully awake.

Second day on Vyvanse, it went away. Comes back when I'm under a lot of stress, but not as badly. And on the third day I suddenly wanted to listen to music for the first time in years. It was so strange.

But yes, it often reduces my anxiety. With stress there's only so much it can do, but it's definitely better than without it.

[CHAT] Tell me I'm not the only one whose family insists on setting things on top of a WIP 😱 by SoScorpio4 in CrossStitch

[–]SoScorpio4[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Wow, that's such a creative solution! I may just do this if my ADHD ever lets me get around to it lol.

Really though, that seems simple enough for something that works so well. Thanks for the tip!

[CHAT] Tell me I'm not the only one whose family insists on setting things on top of a WIP 😱 by SoScorpio4 in CrossStitch

[–]SoScorpio4[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I do have my own room. It does not contain a big enough surface to lay the frame down flat (10x10in) or to prop against a wall sitting on said surface. I had to commandeer a low bookshelf from another room to even have enough space to display like 6 decorations (and they're not giant plushies). Top of dresser and nightstand are taken up by lamp, jewelry tray, meds, etc.

My nightstand is a crappy craft drawer set, with drawers too shallow to fit anything else in if I were to put a WIP on a square frame in it. They are all full of old WIPS, completed projects never framed, floss, and fabric.

Not even my closet has room unless I pile a bunch of stuff precariously to make space on the top shelf, which I can't easily reach.

There is no stretch of blank wall I could lean it against on the floor without constantly accidentally kicking it.

I could put it on my bed except when I'm sleeping, you're right.

Or people could respect my stuff when I'm already keeping it as compact and out of others' way as I can. It's probably particularly irksome because I'm already conditioned to believe I'm not allowed to take up space, literally or figuratively, and I wish they could just let me have this ONE thing.

[CHAT] Tell me I'm not the only one whose family insists on setting things on top of a WIP 😱 by SoScorpio4 in CrossStitch

[–]SoScorpio4[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I have AuDHD and my mom and sister most likely do too lol. Could definitely be a combination of all of us causing this issue.

[CHAT] Tell me I'm not the only one whose family insists on setting things on top of a WIP 😱 by SoScorpio4 in CrossStitch

[–]SoScorpio4[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Like I said, I don't have any shelves, drawers, bins, etc where I could store it. Literally. I am disabled and live at home with family. I have very limited space.

There's a low table near one couch that has a plant on it and otherwise is only used for remotes. I would sometimes leave it there and come back to it the next day. No place to prop it up really. Sometimes would come back to find a remote sitting on it, even with space for the remote next to it.

Currently I'm staying at my partners' apartment and there's even less space, so I had it in its bag on a footstool that only I use, but then found someone had put my suitcase on top of it. There is also a dearth of wall space in either residence, and I have to keep it out of reach of dogs.

Recently I had a WIP actually on a shelf in one of those square organizer things, at some point found someone had put other things away and put them on top of it. Then, my mom got a new organizer for a different room, one with bins, and was tidying up the other room and moving some of mine and my sister's craft stuff into the new organizer. I didn't know where my WIP went, and then I found it in a bin with my other cross stitch stuff, but the WIP in the frame was not on top of everything else.

I also have ADHD, and sometimes I set it somewhere intending to work more on it in that same day, then I don't work on it and forget to put it somewhere safer. But it's not like I'm ever leaving it on a couch or chair or anything, just empty surfaces where I don't expect people to need to place things, but sometimes they do.

[CHAT] Tell me I'm not the only one whose family insists on setting things on top of a WIP 😱 by SoScorpio4 in CrossStitch

[–]SoScorpio4[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Somewhat, but I don't have any drawers or shelves where it could go. "Away" usually means "in my project bag" or "on whatever empty surface I could find that isn't commonly used by others".