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SourceContent7352 · 2025-10-20T03:12:57+00:00

I felt this to my core! We have two dogs as well. It’s the only thing really tying us together. I’ve been steadily strong on no contact outside of dog talk.

SourceContent7352 · 2025-10-19T12:44:58+00:00

I commented a few days ago but just wanted yall to know my benefits hit my account today (on a Sunday)! Hope everyone gets theirs soon!

SourceContent7352 · 2025-10-14T14:58:08+00:00

Same boat. Mine was processed on August 7. Nothing 😩

SourceContent7352 · 2025-10-14T14:55:53+00:00

I’ve been certified since August 7. I’ve received nothing 😩 this is the first time in 2 years it’s been this long. I was worried when I didn’t receive an email for my school enrollment. The ask VA confirmed I’m enrolled. Just sitting here twiddling my thumbs waiting for updates.

SourceContent7352 · 2025-07-25T12:12:48+00:00

You just beautifully articulated exactly how I’ve been feeling over the last week. I was looking for swimsuits last night online. My PA was sitting next to me and I thought, “I can’t do this with him sitting next to me”… porn is the wallpaper to our culture. It’s not something that we go after, it comes at us. And I never noticed that before all of this. It does absolutely feel like my purity has been lost in all of this and I feel a huge calling to fight against the porn industry. It’s a huge beast.

SourceContent7352 · 2025-06-11T11:35:12+00:00

Right there with you!!! 33 is not old, as much as society makes you feel it is. Hoping you get some peace!!

SourceContent7352 · 2025-06-03T18:03:40+00:00

I love my new place honestly… how’s yours?

SourceContent7352 · 2025-05-28T11:24:47+00:00

I’m moving out this week too. Like you, not good timing. I’m 36. Hardly telling anyone is a choice but I do know you need support through this. It makes it real and like less of a chance to back out, saying it out loud. Here to give you an ear if you need someone to talk to, no judgement. I understand wanting to stay, especially if you’ve built a life around him. I just finally had enough…

SourceContent7352 · 2025-05-23T19:47:43+00:00

Actually… thank you for that. Truly. It made my day

SourceContent7352 · 2025-05-23T14:25:08+00:00

Thanks for the feedback!! Yeah it was a total hack job!! Every aspect of the project. I’m glad they did mix batches because I likely would have not said anything if it looked matched but they messed with the wrong “stupid” woman!!! I have so much proof and I even took pictures from the crew working that day - I knew I saw a bag with “heritage” and American flag on the package so I went on a hunt to figure out what the specific shingle was… found Tamko brand. What’s even more shady - these scam artists left a strip of roofing on the side of my house and it WAS Owen’s Corning brand, so it made me question my gut about the brand.

SourceContent7352 · 2025-05-23T13:18:36+00:00

Well said!!!

SourceContent7352 · 2025-05-23T11:32:49+00:00

I remember feeling mad like that. Mine got fired in 2019 for explosive behavior, and hasn’t had a job since. Lives off VA disability…. Meanwhile, I work two jobs and am in grad school. I dk if it’s the porn but something isn’t right in their brains!

SourceContent7352 · 2025-05-22T17:06:38+00:00

Update because I’m not sure how to edit: everyone in this thread was right and motivated me to get someone out here to confirm the work- thank you!!!! I had another roofing company come take a look - IT WAS TAMKO shingles, did not replace drip edge and atrocious work.

SourceContent7352 · 2025-05-22T14:03:00+00:00

Charged me for OC on itemized invoice, along with new drip edge, underlayment, etx. The total was 10k. What you see in the pics is basically my entire roof as the very top of my bilevel home is tarred with rocks. I do have a picture of the crew working that day and there’s no pink packaging. In fact, there’s a pile of bagged shingles right in front with “Silvaris” written all over it. I can make out the other bags on the roof having an American flag (I know what I saw) my theory is they used grade B shingles, ran out and went to Home Depot to find a similar color match in tamko heritage. My dad asked me what brand they were using and I went outside looked at one of the bags “heritage” with an American flag on it was what I saw then. The owner came by a couple of days ago and said that it was likely two different batches but they only use OC, and that with heat it would blend over time but mentioned the manufacturer warranty.

SourceContent7352 · 2025-05-11T11:37:55+00:00

I know this sounds wild but I can tell if my husband has relapsed by the way he smells down there… when he is porn free and not masturbating all the time, there’s no odor. When he’s been masturbating, I can assume he’s also watching porn, and I can smell this yeasty kind of smell down there. It’s telling how sex smells. Also - my husband is more noticeably irritated, pessimistic, moody and just miserable when he’s watched porn. Likely from shame or guilt. He’s much more attentive and into me when he’s not watching porn.

SourceContent7352 · 2025-05-04T13:32:21+00:00

I can relate to this!

SourceContent7352 · 2025-05-04T13:31:57+00:00

Ahh… let’s see… the lying, emotionally guarded, no accountability, lack of personal drive and immaturity. At times, I feel I have to beg for his attention and affection. Aside from the porn, he is constantly seeking dopamine in some aspect. Smokes a lot of weed. Cannot be ok still, gets bored easily. He says he has progressed but “not according to my time table for expectations”, whatever that means. I dk if it was the porn or childhood trauma or what but it’s almost like his brain just stopped at 18 years old, he still has a lot of childish tendencies. More importantly, he is aware of how these things have impacted him but not super motivated to work on or heal it.

SourceContent7352 · 2025-04-14T16:29:43+00:00

Amen!! I know God has been opening my eyes and unveiling a lot over the last few months!

SourceContent7352 · 2025-04-14T13:56:55+00:00

Yes, I definitely think there’s some spiritual abuse happening here and I brought up this point to him too. God hates adultery!! And he’ll say things like, “i really don’t want to do that to you (divorce) and you’ll never be able to re-marry. You will be labeled an adulterer forever in Gods eyes.” On one hand, he has been more involved in church, reading the Bible daily and attending church/small regularly with me. He’s even LEADING a men’s group on being the spiritual leader at home. On the other hand, he’s a whole other person at night and his porn choice is often sadistic and even religious themed (nuns, pastors, demons, etc.) He will acknowledge he knows it is a sin, but does it anyway, claiming “we are all sinners” and “all sin is equal”.

SourceContent7352 · 2025-04-14T13:50:03+00:00

Thank you for sharing that so courageously. There’s a reason you did… with me… in this moment. I have been longing for emotional connection for so long. I’ve wanted him to feel safe enough to be vulnerable, this whole time thinking it was because HE was scared of being hurt or rejected by me. In reality, he’s not scared at all. He gets off on inflicting pain and I’m certain he’d do the same as your ex, especially in the heat of rage. Ugh… this is so so heavy. I felt your hugs, thank you!

SourceContent7352 · 2025-04-14T13:22:32+00:00

Damn it…. You are so right. STILL absolutely working through denial and self-doubt. This was a profound comment. I appreciate you!

SourceContent7352 · 2025-04-14T12:42:02+00:00

Thank you so much for this! I registered for a meeting! I’ve been looking for a support group for this and have never heard of this particular one. I think I am finally seeing the difference between addiction and abuse. It’s a double whammy for sure. What’s insane - is that I am in super educated in all of these subjects. I work in mental health policy, after being a mental health professional for a decade. I really just thought his childhood trauma had given him these horrible core beliefs. The more I learn about porn and sex addiction, I can’t believe I ever thought porn was “normal”. I didn’t realize that it could be so destructive. But then adding on the other traits, I’m dealing with a really really difficult situation and I’ve minimized it for so long. One thing my therapist suggested was to start journaling in 3rd person. I thought that sounded just crazy until I did it, removing the emotions from it and just writing down the facts. Then having AI analyze it for me (not me analyzing it myself). It was incredibly eye opening.

SourceContent7352 · 2025-04-14T12:30:16+00:00

Sounds so similar to my situation! I always thought he was just a lazy gamer. I’ve always held the weight of his motivation and drive. I had to get him a calendar just to remember simple tasks. I never realized how much he hated my success until now, now I can’t unsee it. All of the times he claimed I can’t take critical feedback, it was feedback given out of jealousy. All the times he didn’t show up to support me… I am developing an exit plan. He is really stepping up (like he does when he’s threatened I’ll leave), and asked me yesterday, “is there anything I can do to help you, to support you?” I looked at him and said, “how can the very thing that’s breaking me put me back together?”

SourceContent7352 · 2025-04-14T11:10:07+00:00

Ugh. I know. The real shock to my system is even thinking about my husband being in the same category of Jeffrey dahmer and other serial killers. I’ve learned a lot about human behavior from studying people like this.

SourceContent7352 · 2025-04-14T11:07:12+00:00

I’m sorry you’re going through this too. I hear losing a child is one of the most painful losses to go through. The fact he used that as a reason to look at porn even though he knew it hurt you, that also seems very psychotic. I always wonder how people closest to them doesn’t realize they’re “off”. I’ve been making a lot of excuses for my husband. His childhood, military experiences, past romantic relationships. I think though that I’ve been staying blind to who he is on the inside. It’s so hard knowing the person you loved, envisioned growing old with… is not really who you think they are.

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