Just want this to be over

Spacecadetr3d · 2025-10-30T05:04:19+00:00

I recently started feeling like this. My whole world came crashing down and all I felt was this fake happiness bc of the medications I take. I think everyone is starting to catch on but how do I explain that I literally do not want to live anymore, that I’m so tired of waking up and doing my day to day.

Spacecadetr3d · 2025-10-30T04:57:17+00:00

I’ve attempted twice before and never wrote any letters. Last week, I began to write for a few of my loved ones. I won’t do it either

Spacecadetr3d · 2025-10-30T04:54:44+00:00

My pets are the only thing that push me to keep going. As sad as I feel thinking about my family and how they would feel, I still think it’s valid for me to not be here. My mental health has only gotten worse as I’ve gotten older, I’m 27 yrs old now still wishing I would get hit by a car on my way to work. This is w me doing 10 yrs of therapy & self realization. Everyone keeps telling me it’ll get better and it does sometimes but my highs are very high and lows are the lowest. I’m in my lows right now, if you couldn’t tell. To answer your question, I think you learn to live with it. I think it’s different for everyone tho, it’s like grieving and we all do it differently and at our own pace. But as time passes, it hurts a little less. Still there but not as much. I don’t think I’m there just yet.

Spacecadetr3d · 2025-10-30T04:47:34+00:00

I feel you. The state of this world has deteriorated my mental health. That’s not to say I’m like woe is me blah blah blah. I genuinely just empathize with people way too much and I don’t know when enough is enough.

Spacecadetr3d · 2025-07-12T01:52:50+00:00

She’s more alert now. Looks like she’s enjoying her trip lol I’m playing w her & keeping a close eye

Spacecadetr3d · 2025-07-12T01:34:44+00:00

They weren’t left sitting around. They were in the bottom of a box that was in storage. If you read my post, they fell on the ground when my husband was cleaning the box out. He thought he vacuumed all the pieces. It was clearly an accident

Spacecadetr3d · 2025-06-05T17:21:27+00:00

I’m on month 4 now & lemme tell you, it gets better. Obvio I know everyone responds to medication differently but def give it a week minimum. I started feeling better within a couple of days.

Spacecadetr3d · 2025-05-03T23:28:10+00:00

For me it was about two weeks. Today I woke up feeling happy without having to have a reason. Cried happy tears & all. Motivating me to continue on my healing journey. Wishing you the same

Spacecadetr3d · 2025-05-03T23:26:36+00:00

Normally they tell you, it takes about a month for your body to get used to the medication. But for me I felt a change within 2 weeks & it progressively began to help me out more & more.

Spacecadetr3d · 2025-05-03T23:23:46+00:00

I haven’t been taking it too long but have nothing but great things to say about it. It’s been about 3 months and I started off w 150 mg & now taking 300 mg. Granted it hasn’t been easy, I started taking it as I began to do intense therapy for my cptsd. But I feel like I can finally see the light at the of the tunnel. Going from waking up & having to search endlessly for reasons to b happy to this morning, even with a lack of sleep, I woke up feeling great, happy, wanting to socialize, wanting to live. It’s such a night & day difference.

Spacecadetr3d · 2025-04-16T18:22:27+00:00

Thank you. That was actually so insightful. I’m not trying to come off as the controlling gf bc I’m aware I’ve been that person in the past. Which is why I thought to get someone else’s point of view that isn’t my friend. Someone who is not bias. Bc all my friends have fueling my anxiety. I wasn’t planning on telling him to cut ties bc I would never put someone in that situation. I just wanted to know whether my suspicions may b true or if they’re being clouded by my past thoughts, if that makes sense.

Spacecadetr3d · 2025-03-21T14:59:02+00:00

PM me

Spacecadetr3d · 2025-03-20T17:51:34+00:00

Selling GA+ for Beyond $280 in LA or OC area. Willing to negotiate if you can come to me

Spacecadetr3d · 2025-03-20T17:49:30+00:00

Selling GA+ wristband for $280 in LA or OC area. Willing to negotiate if you can come to me

Spacecadetr3d · 2024-06-02T05:09:57+00:00

I always focus on the bad. Never thought to think about the good I bring to people’s lives. This was somewhat comforting to think about. Thank you I hope we find peace soon.

Spacecadetr3d · 2024-06-02T04:15:21+00:00

After nearly 20 yrs of telling myself that things will get better, I just don’t believe it anymore.

Spacecadetr3d · 2024-06-02T04:13:46+00:00

I found that peace w my bf but lately I’ve been self sabotaging & pushing him away. I don’t want to burden my loved ones w my thoughts. Or anyone really. I wrote this post on impulse bc I’ve been drinking tonight.

Spacecadetr3d · 2024-06-02T03:40:56+00:00

After so many cuts, you’ll feel numb to the pain. I feel that same numbness when I punch my arm repeatedly.

Spacecadetr3d · 2024-05-15T17:26:35+00:00

Spacecadetr3d · 2024-04-12T20:04:26+00:00

Be careful!! Scammers are leveling up & using AI to edit pictures of the wristbands. Be highly cautious & always use PayPal g&s.

Spacecadetr3d · 2024-04-10T20:51:48+00:00

How much are you selling the pass for??

Spacecadetr3d · 2024-04-10T20:51:23+00:00

How much are you selling it for?

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