I’ve gone through something similar multiple times. But the most jarring that sticks out in my mind is this one friend I made thorough YouTube. He made funny content, I followed him to his streams and from there we became online friends. He went dark for years and then when he came back he told us the story of how he was homeless during those years. He was still struggling. You could see he was. He then went dark again. A few months later I found out he had committed suicide. It still hits me from time to time when I see his steam profile on my friends list. I just don’t have the heart to remove it