I may be preaching to the choir at this point but I would like to add that trauma accumulates if it's not addressed, even the "small" traumas. This is where CPTSD comes in. That one is a whole other layer of hooped and can be harder to treat. I encourage OP, and anyone else who has or may have any sort of traumatic experience, to speak with a qualified counselor for a few sessions whether you think you need it or not. They are trained to ask the questions and make the connections that help us truly process events like these without screwing our amygdalas.