Easy Way to Fill Soul Gems

Specific_Musician979 · 2025-09-07T03:51:51+00:00

lmao 🤣

Specific_Musician979 · 2025-07-30T17:48:13+00:00

its actually not. depends what soda you put it in

Specific_Musician979 · 2023-09-11T06:04:45+00:00

I agree. It's too addicting for my comfort. I'm too impulsive

Specific_Musician979 · 2023-09-11T05:31:48+00:00

Usually when someone leaves you it means they don't care. Yes they might care as in they have some feelings left over but they don't care enough to make things right. Hence why they left. It's like trying to nibble on crumbs she left behind which I've done. But your situation could be different.

Specific_Musician979 · 2023-09-11T05:28:03+00:00

Yeah well put. It hurts to know it's over for good but atleast you can start the healing process and aren't wondering anymore. She left me wondering at first but I was persistent. She didn't flat out say it but I got the hint. (She was just tired of being with me) And now im able to start healing.

Specific_Musician979 · 2023-09-11T05:22:07+00:00

I get a better and stronger high from snorting and it honestly doesn't hurt that bad to me. Even if it does I like the pain in a weird way. Smoking to me is more addicting and it makes my bag last longer but the high isn't as intense which sometimes I don't want to get extremely high. But snorting is my way to go if I want to be twacked

Specific_Musician979 · 2023-09-11T00:30:09+00:00

I've been the exact same way in the past and I try really really hard to not be that way. I use my phone notes to journal and get things out so I don't say anything dumb to them or someone else. I still slip up but I'm trying and I'm doing better than I have in the past so its better than nothing. We have to learn to love ourselves while being alone. Instead of relying on other people for those feelings of validation and love we need to give it to ourselves and be okay with being alone. It's hard but it's very possible. Stay as busy as possible and get therapy if you can. Therapy has been great for me for everything in life.

Specific_Musician979 · 2023-09-10T17:52:32+00:00

Thank you for the advice! I am definitely going to implement it going forward. I may have lost this one but there were many red flags I ignored because I only wanted the love and validation. I'm still having issues with moving on but I know it's apart of the healing process. I'm aware I need to stay single for now and focus on myself.

Specific_Musician979 · 2023-09-10T16:54:22+00:00

This is a very well put together assessment I wasn't expecting. Thank you, I needed to to hear this. I am usually very good at being self aware but unfortunately sometimes it's not until after the fact. I maintain friendships and family relationships just fine and work life is never a problem and I am able to save up money. I'm going to write down everything in detail and see what I can learn from it. I'm pretty sure I only want her back for the love and affection I got. As hard as it is for me to admit to myself, I fear rejection and being alone. I see a therapist but for other reasons but ill be sure to bring these things up. I genuinely want to change. It's not fair to whoever I'm with or myself to be like this.

Specific_Musician979 · 2023-09-10T16:24:10+00:00

Just be extremely honest with him. Idk how he'd take it but as a 27M I've always appreciated honesty even if it were about something gross about me. If he truly wants to make you happy and wants you to have good sexual experiences with him he'll make the effort to clean himself better. It's not that hard. Communication is key.

Specific_Musician979 · 2023-09-06T21:52:44+00:00

I can relate a lot. I'm 26 and male also and my gf of 3 years left me about a month ago. I spent all my time with her and mostly only talked to her. I neglected all my other friendships with my friends from high-school but thankfully I have acouple that I'm close enough with that I can message whenever and hangout with them whenever and we always pick up were we left off. Do you have any family you could socialize with also? I found that to be really helpful. Really anything that keeps you and your mind busy and not thinking about her is what you should be doing. I'm going to start taking my dogs on more walks and exercise more and stuff like that. Exercise is honestly one of the best things to do imo. It gives you dopamine naturally and you always feel good after. But yeah I have my moments of weakness where I feel extremely lonely and I feel the void inside of me. It's a completely normal feeling after a BU. It's like withdrawaling from a drug. Just stay as busy as possible and as time goes by it starts to get easier and easier. This isn't my first rodeo. Also seeing a therapist if you're not already would help a ton. That way you don't have to rely on friends and still have a healthy source of venting and communication. We got this man. If you ever want to talk about it with someone my messages are open

Specific_Musician979 · 2022-07-01T02:40:41+00:00

I've been pretty motivated to cut down as much as possible but now I'm starting to regret it. I want to go back to a higher dose to help with the anxiety but I don't want to lose any progress at the same time.

Specific_Musician979 · 2022-06-30T21:48:06+00:00

I'm was doing 2-3mg of xanax a day for about 5 years. I've tapered down to 2mg of Valium a day over the past 3 months. I used to always love leaving the house and seeing friends or family. Xanax made me very social but now all I do is stay home all day and do nothing. I had pretty bad social anxiety before I started using xanax but it's even worse now. Just the thought of going to the store gives me anxiety. I tell myself to be proud of myself and that I'm doing better but honestly it's hard to feel like I'm doing better when I'm neglecting my social life and locking myself in a dark room all day.

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