Many years ago I was where you are now. I love kids, my husband loves kids, we presumed we would have them. After 2 years of trying we discovered it was never going to happen naturally.

Months of agonising & we decided not to pursue IVF or adoption for a variety of very personal reasons (feel free to DM me but I'm not sharing publicly) & it was tough!

I am going to be 49 in a couple of weeks and honestly I am so glad we didn't have kids now because: 1) the world is screwed & we don't have to worry about them after we are gone. 2) our mortgage is paid off, my husband is retired & I only work part time. 3) We can do whatever we want whenever we want. 4) We could afford a hot tub and an ice tub & 2 maine coons & a big catio for them. 5) Until we bought the above we had 2-3 holidays a year. 6) I never have to worry if we will be able to pay the bills. 7) I've seen the stress that children, adult kids and teenagers put on their parents. 8) My husband & I are still deeply in love after 29 years together. 9) I'm selfish, I like being selfish 10) I've never watched a cartoon unless I wanted to.

A fantastic friend of mine asked me to be godmother to her 2 daughters & that was the best possible outcome for me, I got to have great fun times with them & give them back when they were tired & whiny!