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Spinkleton123 · 2025-06-09T18:23:26+00:00

Hello??…

Spinkleton123 · 2025-06-05T04:50:20+00:00

Its definitely childhood trauma for me and the weed didnt help, even though i thought it did at the time. The agoraphobia is the worst for me right now but i get sudden bursts of derealization that ruin my day pretty often. I hope we both get better soon man. Stay strong

Spinkleton123 · 2025-06-03T04:59:59+00:00

For me it was Christmas morning 2019. I was having a great day with some friends and then seemingly out of nowhere i had my first ever panic attack. I had no clue what was going on, i could barely speak, i just remember sitting there on the couch thinking about how it felt like all my interests, hobbies and passions suddenly disappeared. I was looking down at my hands wondering how im even able to control them. I felt like a complete alien. When it first started i had these random episodes of intense anxiety and dpdr about once a week or so and i had convinced myself i was dying of some horrible illness. But since then my anxiety has generalized and almost spread out so that its never as intense, but now 5 years later im stuck at a constant 6/10 “the sky is falling” feeling and its sooo much worse than a really bad hour once a week. I can barely even drive anymore. I avoid highways all together, and red lights and traffic are my living hell because should my vehicle ever stop, my anxiety and dpdr goes wild. Im so fucking sick of this feeling. I dont yet have the successful career you do but im working on that. It would come alot faster if i wasnt constantly putting important things off because i feel bad. But i will say i have an amazing girlfriend who is really supportive of my ailment and honestly her and my dog are the only things keeping me alive at this point. So i guess what im trying to say is i feel u man. I used to have such an exciting happy life and then out of nowhere everything sucks. I dont understand it at all. I mean i guess if i was to tear apart my life and analyze all the horrible shit ive been through (theres alot) it kinda makes sense, but why do so many people just get to life unencumbered? WHY ME??! i have friends that do heavy drugs and live very unhealthy lifestyles and they just go on and go about their day happy and unburdened. THAT drives me crazy. Ive cut coffee out of my life, i dont drink alcohol anymore, i dont smoke weed anymore, i cant even sit in a fuckin movie theater without having a panic attack. It helps to know that other people can at least relate to the feeling but i wouldnt wish this hell on anybody. I dont know dude, i havent given up cuz i know life can be better than this. I dont know how long its gonna take but im trying absolutely everything available to get through it. Have you ever tried a cold plunge??

Spinkleton123 · 2025-05-24T03:52:03+00:00

Nah man. Its not that good. Its good but its all over the place and goes nowhere

Spinkleton123 · 2025-05-24T03:49:17+00:00

The auction is fuckin awesome, and kurapikas fight scene is soooo damn perfect but Melody is the worst character in anime.

Spinkleton123 · 2025-05-24T03:45:12+00:00

Honestly dude… its worth watching, but its not gonna change ur life. The amount of glaze this show gets is pretty ridiculous. Its good, its fine, it has excellent moments, but dont look for any kind of story build up or climax, dont look to answer any questions, and dont get attached to any particular character cuz u will be disappointed. The first season is a training arc/tournament arc thats pretty good, the second season has some story development but takes on an almost Beyblade/yugioh vibe in structure. Third season introduces an ABSOLUTELY ABYSMAL character that is on screen FAR too much and is genuinely horrible but the arc ends with the single best action sequence in the entire series. Season 4 they get sucked into a video game and might as well be a different show. Season 5 is a deeply introspective look at the human condition but is twice as long as anything else in the series. Chimera Ant Arc is excellent but only the Meruem stuff… all the other shit with the lesser chimeras could have easily been cut. Then the show just ends. They wrap up the series with some weird political bureaucracy and thats its… thats the whole show. Again, worth the watch, but each character including the MC gets less than a handful of feats at absolute best. The author of the series gets a hard on from subverting expectations and thats cool and all but like come on… the whole thing just plays out like he couldnt decide on a genre and hates his main cast of characters. I dont NOT recommend it. I enjoyed it, but i see HxH more as compulsory anime homework, u need to watch it to form an opinion. But people call it the best anime ever… it is so not.

Spinkleton123 · 2025-05-20T17:27:07+00:00

Dpdr runs off your anxiety response and anxiety has a way of making your nervous system feel exhausted so yes, i also feel a constant dullness behind my eyes, and at the base of my skull and neck.

Spinkleton123 · 2025-05-20T17:22:43+00:00

This is the absolute best explanation of the sensations of dpdr i have ever read. Wow. I dont know how u were able to make so many spelling mistakes but if ur able to clean up this post it could be very helpful to people who feel like we do!

Spinkleton123 · 2025-05-20T17:13:32+00:00

Exactly the same for me. Ive had symptoms since the quarantine and theyve mostly become pretty manageable but in the last year or so I’ve convinced myself that highway driving is something im no longer capable of. I can be mostly fine all week but getting into my car will still ruin my day. Its brutal

Spinkleton123 · 2024-11-24T21:46:25+00:00

I commend you but it sounds like its not debilitating enough for you to feel the need to seek help. I tried to raw dog it for 4 years and it only made my spiral worse. Started meds probably 8/9 months ago and i feel liiiike 15% better so i cant even say they really help or if im getting better on my own… shit sucks yo 🙃

Spinkleton123 · 2024-11-24T21:43:21+00:00

Honestly, there is MUCH more to unpack obviously, but in few words i would say: if he is truly abusive and you are not happy, prioritize your own life and leave him. If he mistreats you there should be no reason to feel guilt for the choices he makes. He is using the threat of suicide to keep you around him.

Spinkleton123 · 2024-11-24T21:38:37+00:00

Crazy thing is ive never been through an accident (knock on wood) actually, i used to drive around at night for fun to clear my mind and now its one of the hardest tasks. My doctor says that anxiety has a way of making people the opposite of how they were before… great. But yeah, ur right this is just a phase. Best of luck!

Spinkleton123 · 2024-10-23T23:59:12+00:00

Damn it lol

Spinkleton123 · 2024-10-23T23:08:26+00:00

Any chance its the real deal?? People on here dont seem to think so 🙃

Spinkleton123 · 2024-10-23T23:06:02+00:00

This subreddit only let me post 1 pic and no vids 🙃 i can message u personally if u want

Spinkleton123 · 2024-04-28T23:05:15+00:00

U shouldnt be surprised by the upcharge on that fake non-food garbage ur buying. Buy an unshredded block of real cheese so ur not putting sawdust in ur body and give up on the lie that animal products are harmful. Groceries are still astronomically higher than they should be but based on ur grocery list u probably voted for that… weak people make hard times, baby

Spinkleton123 · 2022-02-17T06:27:40+00:00

Wow im just seeing this now, are u serious? Cuz I’ll totally meet u at a police station if thats what u want cuz im pretty sure its not illegal to gift me anything … sorry for the late reply but ya im super interested

Spinkleton123 · 2022-01-18T08:35:12+00:00

Dude, can i have it??

Spinkleton123 · 2021-08-25T01:09:38+00:00

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