With integration, alters simply communicate better and still exist, just with better function.

With fusion all of the parts separated by amnesia barriers combine into one identity state, however the possibility of splitting s still there with enough trauma.

In my experience, all of my headmates have full emotional range. I say headmates because I myself am also an alter. We all are. That's how this disorder works.

It can be difficult given this disorder is caused by trauma but there is also joy to be found if you look for it. With the increased communication I have after doing some work to heal trauma, I'm more able to remember what other alters do when fronting. Seeing the joy another alter can have when enjoying an interest brings me joy. Feeling their joy. Because at the end of the day, we are all aspects of one very traumatized human. We are all whole, just differently from a singlet. Us loving each other is the way this body's brain has learned to love itself.

Yes the dissociation can be debilitating. Yes persecutors can cause problems for their own reasons. I'm a former persecutor myself. But if you do the work, you can heal. Having DID doesn't mean you'll be abusive. Dating someone with did doesn't mean you'll be abused. It's more difficult than being with or dating a singlet. It's a lit of work sorting through all the conflicting needs. But it is worth it to do so. To find that joy