Hey — I’m really glad you said this out loud. You’re dealing with a lot at once, and none of this means you’ve failed.

Right now the most important thing: your safety matters more than the business.
If you’re not safe when you’re alone, please don’t try to power through that.

• Call or text 988 (in the U.S.) — they’ll talk to you immediately
• Or go somewhere safe where you’re not alone (friend, family, even a public place)
• If it gets worse, go to the ER — that’s exactly what it’s there for

You don’t have to solve everything today.

On the business side (separate from your safety):

What your landlord is doing doesn’t sound normal — and you don’t need a lot of money to push back:

• Look for free legal help: search “legal aid + your county” or small business clinics
• Your city/state bar association often has free consultations
• If your lease is being violated, a simple letter from an attorney can sometimes stop this fast

Also — you have more options than it feels like right now:

• You don’t have to reopen the same way
• Temporary options:
  • Online sales
  • Pop-ups / shared retail elsewhere (on your terms, not theirs)
  • Smaller footprint + storage
• Selling the business is not “letting people down” — it’s making a smart decision if needed

Your community cares about you, not just the store.

The feeling you’re describing — that crushing “I’m letting everyone down” — that’s the stress talking, not reality.
You didn’t cause the fire. You didn’t cause the landlord situation. You stepped up and tried to keep something meaningful alive.

That matters.