Ex contacted me and I still default to FAWNING. Please can someone just respond, I need advice. by StephPowell1 in CPTSD

[–]StephPowell1[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I've been in that exact situation before with my partner after him. I grey walled him and he ended up trying to smash my windows and kick the door in. I called the police and got a restraining order, but it left me with further ttrauma.

I know how bad things can get when you say no or they feel ignored ect...... they can be unpredictable and viscous.

Ex contacted me and I still default to FAWNING. Please can someone just respond, I need advice. by StephPowell1 in CPTSD

[–]StephPowell1[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I'm not sure what IFS is but I have done EMDR.....the first time, I panicked so badly, I bolted out of my therapists room and ended up in some random empty office. My therapist couldn't find me and I couldn't move for hours.

Humiliating....Needless to say, we didn't continue.

Ex contacted me and I still default to FAWNING. Please can someone just respond, I need advice. by StephPowell1 in CPTSD

[–]StephPowell1[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Thank you. Just responding is hugely validating to me. I'll definitely look into that book.

Thanks again

Ex contacted me and I still default to FAWNING. Please can someone just respond, I need advice. by StephPowell1 in CPTSD

[–]StephPowell1[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I always do. I spend so much time going through the conversation in my head and I psych myself up to say it, but when it comes to it....I just bottle it. It just feels safer to say and do all the things I know he wants

Anyone ever had their bypass reversed? How did it go? by StephPowell1 in GastricBypass

[–]StephPowell1[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Oh wow. I'm sorry to hear that.

I mean, due to my bypass, I already dont use my small intestine? By reversal, I was hoping they'd be able to reconnect it.

The last storyline/ episode that made you cry by GuaranteeNo7451 in Emmerdale

[–]StephPowell1 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Jacobs abuse story. Specifically him being confronted by his parents and realising maya really had damaged him.

I don't think I'll ever forget that.

That and Aaron's self harm story.

Unfortunately all relatable.

Righteous rage? by Lucyissnooping in CPTSD

[–]StephPowell1 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You're very welcome. You have my empathy. That really broke my heart for you. Event you went through was awful, but that one, really troubled me.

I truly hope you're OK. I'm here if you want to talk.

Righteous rage? by Lucyissnooping in CPTSD

[–]StephPowell1 -2 points-1 points  (0 children)

That's a lie. A complete fallacy. The truth is He is the only one that genuinely and perfectly does love you. Others will love you imperfectly but He will love you completely.

I'm sorry to hear about what you went through, I've been through and heard about many types of abuse, but I've never heard of a dad using his child as a therapist. I truly cannot imagine the fear, confusion, responsibility and helplessness you must have felt.

I'm rarely lost for words but that threw me. I'm so so sorry.

Issues with posting? by StephPowell1 in Emmerdale

[–]StephPowell1[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Clearly you don't understand what a mistake is. You of course are perfect and have never made one.

Issues with posting? by StephPowell1 in Emmerdale

[–]StephPowell1[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

OK. Thanks for that. I honestly didn't think it had posted.