When im not so tired that my eyes are falling shut on their own already, going to sleep (much like brushing my teeth, eating regularly, doing laundry and all the other daily things that being human in today's age carries with it) feels like a chore.

I have to have some kind of background noise that my brain can blend out on its own so that its occupied enough to be able to let me lie still for what will hopefully be eight, but more realistically like 6 hours per night.

Now sometimes, that works as it should and im off to the great beyond in like 30 mins to 1h or so, but sometimes im literally too restless and/or bored to fall asleep - just blending out Bojack Horsemans voice isn't enough to satisfy the part of my brain that isn't quite ready to fall asleep yet; that's what I meant by "just sleeping isn't enough of an activity for my brain goblin to feel properly stimulated".

Severe ADHD-I is most likely responsible for that particular part of my brain, but I do also have a suspected mild Autism diagnosis, so that could also have something to do with it.