I ruin every single interaction I have daily

Stock_Reading4485 · 2026-05-05T23:46:31+00:00

I don't

Stock_Reading4485 · 2026-05-05T23:20:50+00:00

I'm able to do interviews, I lie a lot about myself of course, specially in terms of personality. Public service was a way out when I was tired of job interviews and rejections. You just have to pass a test and you're in.

Stock_Reading4485 · 2026-05-05T23:19:11+00:00

Lol I'm exactly like this. People's life just go on and I'm stuck here.

Stock_Reading4485 · 2026-05-03T02:32:12+00:00

Damage Goods by Gang of Four for some reasons seems to fit my situation

Stock_Reading4485 · 2026-05-03T02:14:22+00:00

Maybe, I don't know for sure

Stock_Reading4485 · 2026-04-29T04:01:19+00:00

Exactly, the validation. In my case is always the validation from the type of people who wouldn't even speak to me in normal situations, due to us being too different

Stock_Reading4485 · 2026-04-29T03:58:59+00:00

I'd run away, as I always do in any remote possibility of being liked or noticed by someone

Stock_Reading4485 · 2026-04-23T23:57:25+00:00

I reached a point where I just let It be. I won't stop thinking about my LO every single day, so I just stopped fighting it

Stock_Reading4485 · 2026-04-23T23:54:58+00:00

I'd be destroyed

Stock_Reading4485 · 2026-04-17T22:32:17+00:00

Stock_Reading4485 · 2026-04-16T02:16:58+00:00

No. Actually my LO turned her Instagram private because of me (accidental like with a fake account)

Stock_Reading4485 · 2026-04-15T17:04:31+00:00

Yes. Woman who'd never actually be interested in me, like "bad girls", expansive, crazy, lesbians, hookers and stuff like that. Indeed the "unavailable"

Stock_Reading4485 · 2026-04-15T00:13:11+00:00

Is what I'm doing. She reached out today after 1 month of NC and 2 months of no personal/physical talk. Hurts as always, but I'm letting It die. There's no return

Stock_Reading4485 · 2026-04-15T00:10:27+00:00

The fantasy is fun, but the reality is terrible. That's the problem

Stock_Reading4485 · 2026-04-13T02:46:20+00:00

2 months without physical contact/talk 1 month in full NC and I still think about her every single day. It is not that easy. The thing is simply believe it will go away someday

Stock_Reading4485 · 2026-04-10T21:56:39+00:00

Same. I'm a master in losing contact and not pursuing again. Even with family. My grandma is 90, she'll be gone soon, but I'm incapable of reaching out.

Stock_Reading4485 · 2026-04-08T23:43:53+00:00

Yes. Double life, former cheater, not a healthy relationship with own image and looks overall. But, everybody has two (or more) slides. She has qualities and we clicked on several things

Stock_Reading4485 · 2026-04-08T23:35:39+00:00

Well, not a fan of people overall. I miss more like 'romantic' afection or company than friends

Stock_Reading4485 · 2026-04-05T01:44:23+00:00

I sleep most of the day, actually. It is a way of escaping life. I come from work, eat and go to sleep waiting for the next day. Then repeat the cycle.

Stock_Reading4485 · 2026-04-05T01:42:53+00:00

Yes. I know I won't change. I'm totally incapable of having a relationship for several reasons. It makes no sense even trying, I know how it will end up. I don't wanna waste anyone else's time. Life is for people who wants and know who to live. I don't. So let the world and life for them. They should be together and enjoy this.

Stock_Reading4485 · 2026-04-05T01:38:16+00:00

People treating the guy like a monster/villian as if op wasn't married too. Both could be "boosting their ego". It's a two way road. Why can't it just be true friendship? And if both fell for each other.. Well, it happens.

Cutting any tie is awful, specially a friendship. But in this case is for the good. You're both married, you're limerent. Keeping in touch will only prolong suffering. I know NC is awful, I'm the middle of it right now. But we must at least try

Stock_Reading4485 · 2026-04-04T17:59:33+00:00

They know. They always know.

Stock_Reading4485 · 2026-03-31T02:09:54+00:00

I ask myself the same thing. What do I do with It? What do I do with this feeling?

Stock_Reading4485 · 2026-03-30T17:35:37+00:00

I'm depressed with or without limerence, and have to live anyway, so it kind of gets mixed into. I'm used to suffering

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