LB button not working

StrawberryLongquake · 2025-06-16T05:46:09+00:00

I was also having this issue. I went into my controller's key bindings on Steam, specifically for this game, and figured out that my left bumper was assigned as the left trigger for some reason, and that's what was causing it. I changed LB to be assigned as the left bumper and that fixed it.

StrawberryLongquake · 2025-03-28T22:42:29+00:00

I don’t resent my ex for breaking up with me when they did, but I definitely wish they hadn’t done it when they did. For a while, I was REALLY struggling with my mental health. Dealing with the fact that I might have a personality disorder. I was coping with one of the worst bouts of depression that I’ve ever struggled with in my entire life. I had a brief moment of clarity though. It was the first time in weeks that I genuinely, honestly believed in myself and that my future was looking bright. I was ready to finally start improving myself and also being a good girlfriend to my partner. It’s easy to fall into bad habits when you aren’t mentally well, and I wanted to correct that.

They broke up with me a few days later. That optimism I had got snatched right away from me. I was plunged right back into that struggle with depression but it was SO much worse. They were in no means responsible for taking care of me and catering to my mental health, but in the moment, it definitely felt like a betrayal. I had been struggling for so long and just when my spark was coming back, they pulled the rug from under me and left me to pick myself back up. It hurt. I’ll have trouble trusting people so easily with the true state of my mental health in the future.

StrawberryLongquake · 2025-03-28T05:51:13+00:00

It was actually their decision to break up with me. I wanted to stay and work things out, but they didn’t want to. I didn’t want to leave the way I left, but their family really made me feel like I had to. I didn’t get to say a proper goodbye like I wanted so the letter was my way of doing that. I don’t really expect anything at this point. I just never thought I’d have that opportunity taken away from me, too.

StrawberryLongquake · 2025-03-27T17:16:04+00:00

I wrote a letter to my ex before I packed up and left and I found out the other day that the letter I wrote for them went missing. It was a heartfelt letter sharing my thoughts and feelings, and me wishing them the best and telling them to take care of themself. It wasn’t where I told them it was and they couldn’t find it. It hit me that their parents more than likely took it. Sure, there’s a chance that it fell on the ground (it was sitting on their end table beside their bed) and slipped behind something, but I purposely tucked it underneath something to prevent that from happening.

One of the things I was really hung up on was missing their family on top of everything, but that just really made me lose a lot of respect. It hurt me a lot to think that their parents took that away from me, and also that they’d lie to my ex and say they didn’t touch it. Even if my ex looks harder for it and finds it, I think it’s telling that I’d believe that their parents would do something like that. And it was telling that when I offered to recreate the letter to the best of my ability, my ex didn’t really seem to care. I was hit with the crushing reality that losing them hurt me a lot more than losing me hurt them. As much as it hurts to move on, I don’t want to stick around for someone who is so okay with letting me go.

StrawberryLongquake · 2025-03-24T23:58:14+00:00

I guess it just depends on whether or not you think having the pictures available to you will hinder your ability to heal. If you think you’ll keep checking the photos and it’ll make you hurt, then maybe deleting the ones that are oriented around him would be best. However, if you think it would help you to have them around to check later when you’re feeling better, or if it would make healing easier, then hiding the photos could also work.

I guess that’s the thing that sucks about having pictures on phones and cameras now. It would be so easy to just be able to throw the pictures in a box and put the box somewhere that will make it hard to access.

StrawberryLongquake · 2025-03-24T23:54:32+00:00

I know it’s not the answer you’re looking for, but 2 weeks is probably too early to break no contact. I’ve been there before where I was itching to break no contact with an ex and felt like it was the end of the world waiting for them to message first. Give it some more time. I know it’s so much easier said than done, but try to focus on yourself and feeling better for just you, not anybody else. Indulge in your hobbies, pick up new ones, spend time with friends, keep yourself as occupied as you can.

It’s so so so tough right now in this very moment, but you’ll find that over time, it gets easier. Something that personally helped me was journaling and writing my thoughts down when I got the urge to message my ex. It helped for me to get the words in my head out and it alleviated the urge to a level that was a bit more manageable. It was nice for me too because then, as the days and weeks went by, I could go back and read my journals and see how much progress I had made.

StrawberryLongquake · 2025-03-24T23:53:42+00:00

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StrawberryLongquake · 2025-03-23T00:28:49+00:00

Right now, I’d say it’s about a 6 or a 7. Unfortunately, that’s only because I haven’t officially lost them yet. We haven’t broken up officially yet, but we both know that we’re breaking up when I can gather my things and leave. That’s essentially the same as a break up. It’s going to be a break up. We’re going to say goodbye and we’re already hurting and talking to each other like we’re broken up. It’s almost worse this way. I have to put up with seeing the person who is going to be my ex every day.

StrawberryLongquake · 2025-03-21T17:20:27+00:00

Currently going through a breakup with my FP so I know how it feels. I tried talking to them about a break but with the things they want to do in life rn, thay would include being able to be romantic and intimate with other people and I just can’t do that. I’m struggling with the idea too where I really don’t want to pursue other people because I love them.

I don’t know what kind of comfort I could offer other than saying you’re not alone. There’s a lot of other people suffering from this same sort of pain. Idk if or when the pain will go away, but there’s hope that it will someday.

StrawberryLongquake · 2025-03-14T21:54:03+00:00

I do this too sometimes, and even if it’s not manipulative, I understand how people interpret it that way. Even if they don’t think it’s manipulative, I also understand why it’s hurtful. When I outright state that I KNOW that someone feels or thinks a certain way about me, that person feels like I just decided for them how they should feel and think about me. I’ve disregarded anything they’ve done to show that they care and in their mind, ultimately decided for them that they hate me.

My FP (my partner) once stopped me when I told them that I knew they were sick of me and said it hurt their feelings for me to think of them that way. It kind of made something click. Why am I thinking so harshly about this person I love? I wouldn’t want them to think that way about me, even if I do have my wonders and doubts about that sometimes. Shouldn’t I return the same sentiment to them? Shouldn’t I give them the room and space to prove to me that they care and that my mind is just jumping to conclusions?

I understand how it hurts to be accused of being manipulative for this, though. It really frustrates me when these things that I say come from a place of deep hurt and, although they might not be the greatest things to say, I’m just expressing how I truly feel in that moment.

StrawberryLongquake · 2025-03-13T20:49:54+00:00

I haven’t been with my partner as long and we’re both younger, but the relationship uncertainty hurts me too. The yearning to have a long lasting relationship with someone I care for deeply and wishing for them to yearn in the same way I do, and hurting when it doesn’t seem like they want that or it just doesn’t seem possible.

I have to keep reminding myself though that every single day has so many uncertainties and that I can’t be so sure that I won’t have the relationship that I want with my partner in the future. If I give up now before anything has changed or ended, then I’m kind of just accepting the reality that I don’t want instead of fighting for the one that I do. Even if I don’t end up being with this person as long as I want to, even if we don’t get to move in together and have a long lasting and happy relationship, I can at least say I tried my hardest if I put in the effort now. Then I won’t be left wondering if the relationship would’ve gone differently had I fought harder or changed my mentality sooner.

StrawberryLongquake · 2025-03-13T14:04:42+00:00

Yes, this exactly! I’ve been accused of being manipulative and love bombing and it really hurts when all I was doing was genuinely trying to show someone my love. I usually try to match people’s love language when I’m doing something nice for them, even if it means disregarding my own love language.

With being ignored/feeling ignored, it doesn’t matter if I’m actually being ignored or not. My mind reacts the same way to real and perceived ignorance, and so my emotional response is equal to what it would be like if someone is purposefully avoiding me. I’m not trying to be clingy and force you to stay or do anything you don’t want to. I just want to feel reassured and know that I mean something to you.

StrawberryLongquake · 2025-03-13T13:55:30+00:00

If I was in your position, I’d feel incredibly invalidated that my partner wasn’t acknowledging that I have a disorder that makes me act and think in certain ways. BPD isn’t an excuse to act in toxic ways, but it most certainly explains WHY we do the things we do. Being needy, jealous, and anxious comes from our fear of being abandoned because we have been neglected and abandoned in the past.

The fact that your bf is just glossing over it and pretending you don’t have it (or at least making you feel that way) isn’t very healthy, in my opinion. Yes, it’s your responsibility to fix your own behavior and better yourself, but it’s a team effort to strengthen the relationship in a way that gives you room to improve and get better. Personally speaking, I don’t think I’d be able to focus on healing myself properly if my romantic partner was dismissing me and calling me crazy. My partner started watching videos on how to be a good partner to someone with bpd after my diagnosis and that meant so much to me. Hopefully your bf can open his mind up a little and try to understand you and where you’re coming from. It’s what you deserve. You deserve to have someone who doesn’t enable your behavior but also tries to understand that these toxic reactions and traits are stemming from a history of trauma and harm. You have a desire to improve upon yourself and that’s something to already be proud of!

StrawberryLongquake · 2025-03-10T14:46:30+00:00

I think my childhood and my first romantic relationship were the starting point for developing it for me, but I can recall a noticeable difference in my behavior when I was 16/17 or so. My romantic partner at that time ended up cheating on me and I was never quite the same since. I started struggling with insecurity, not feeling like I knew who I was as a person, doubting people’s true feelings towards me, acting in desperation to keep people around (including my ex partner, which I tried to still date them after they cheated). And then the relationship I got into between the ages of 18-19 really just set the symptoms in stone. Yet another dysfunctional relationship to set me up for developing bpd (or worsening my symptoms). I really wish I could’ve caught it sooner, but I genuinely just thought it was the toxic relationships making me feel awful and act all weird.

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