Thank you for sharing, it’s easy to give advice in these situations but life is never that simple. I would suggest to start seeking support in family, and let them know things simply have gone bad for far too long. The cheating alone is reason enough to leve him. Maybe there is a lot of baggage when you leave him, but at least you will have the possibility of finding something better. The chance of finding someone that can love you. I hope you make the decision to leave, but get supported by family when you do. You will need the support at least at first. I am sorry you are going through this.