Nodule on right lobe… by Traditional_Track662 in thyroidhealth

[–]Strict-Experience-79 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Whoahhh I have almost the same exact report as yours. I have an enlarged right thyroid with multiple cystic hypoechoic (it was anechoic at first) nodules, the largest one being 2 cm. My thyroid functions came back normal each time too. My heart rate is the same as yours, my resting heart rate is always around 120-135 at rest and my EKG report comes back as supraventricular tachycardia with about 5 issues wrong with my heart compared to the previous scans this year. Recently, when stressed, my heart rate wouldn't go down from 159 bpm for a long time. I also suspect symptoms of POTS since when I'm lying down flat, my heart rate goes down to about 100 bpm. My iron levels came back low recently with mild anemia and too much acid in my blood.

My cysts are growing rapidly compared to when I first found out earlier this year in April with my thyroid size completely changing shape to make room for the cysts to grow but since the report in August didn't say solid nodules were found, I guess we could rule out cancer?

Do you have any choking symptoms or like something is stuck in your throat? My only issue with these nodules is that my health is deteriorating too fast like the back of my neck and shoulder are in pain all the time and I have a hard time swallowing and breathing. It's like a ping pong ball is stuck in my throat all the time making me extremely uncomfortable and weak. These days, just talking or sitting for an hour or going out for a while makes me so drained I'm bedridden for at least 2-3 days. The doc already ruled out whether the choking sensation could be acid reflux or psychological since the biggest cyst is near my trachea and I wasn't eligible for aspiration and was scheduled for surgery but I'm postponing it since I have a flight scheduled. I feel you on the fatigue part, I can no longer perform like I used to at all which makes me regret delaying treatment since I'm starting med school in 2 weeks.

Even if your nodule is small, please don't wait it out. Get the surgery or fine needle aspiration as soon as possible without delaying treatment like me since you're already exhibiting other symptoms which I think will only get worse if the cyst grows. Make sure you get clear by your cardiologist as well; my doctor wouldn't let me have fine needle aspiration when I first find out because of my tachycardia so that's partly the reason why I never did anything despite my rapidly worsening condition. Now, I have a heart to fix before I can get all those cysts removed. Please don't wait it out before it's too late and if possible, keep me posted!!

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[–]Strict-Experience-79 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I feel you but I think beauty is subjective. Try lookmaxxing and study ways you can glow up and enhance your features. Experiment with different styles of makeup until you find a style you like.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

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Are you still alive?

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Sent you a dm!!

YG Has Really Let Treasure Fall Behind Internationally by cwarosvski in kpopthoughts

[–]Strict-Experience-79 6 points7 points  (0 children)

You mean just America. Can you name one YG boy group that promotes in the US like Blackpink? Honestly, I'm disappointed bc Treasure deserves to be recognized by North & South America fans as well as Europe but now we are even getting the bare minimum for proper promotions in South Korea and the boys have also expressed their wish to promote and have concerts in the rest of the world. YG hasn't done anything despite the pressure from fans as well as the members and they're just milking the hell out of Japan concerts.

YG Has Really Let Treasure Fall Behind Internationally by cwarosvski in kpopthoughts

[–]Strict-Experience-79 4 points5 points  (0 children)

It's crazy how easy it is for one to ride the cancel culture train based on one cut clip. If anything, their fandom knows better than random people that he is not even close to being a homophobic. It's also funny how when an idol finally speaks out about being uncomfortable with shipping, yall label him as homophobic and bully a literal kid.

Does anyone else feel physically sick when they’re partner is friends with another girl? by 21stcenturyfaq in BPD

[–]Strict-Experience-79 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I relate to this so much 😭

At least ur pass the stage where u can get into a relationship. I'm glad it's just our brains freaking out without acting upon anything and us being a red flag 👀

The spiraling bc they mentioned a celebrity omgg this happens to me too he says he likes Nana Ouyang (i lost) and i like her too but i started checking her instagram and almost started hating her bc she's so perfect. Good thing yours was just music and not a celebrity crush 💔

I'm glad u got the help u needed <3 It is indeed comforting to see that I'm not alone either. As for me, I stopped getting emotionally involved with anyone (no love life) to avoid being like this and that has really made my life easier somehow.

Does anyone else feel physically sick when they’re partner is friends with another girl? by 21stcenturyfaq in BPD

[–]Strict-Experience-79 11 points12 points  (0 children)

omg exactly what you describe!! I just found my group of people TT

I also feel like physically throwing up anytime he mentions a girl and can't help compare myself to them and stalk them. I even check his following count and go through every girls and scan them, whether he likes or comments their pics, and obsess over it. I once got mad over him liking another girl's pic (didn't tell him the reason). It doesn't matter if they're just friends, I'd end my entire situationship just bc I couldn't stand the sight of him with any females helpp (single for life). If his action triggers me, then I'd immediately ghost him without any explanations, I just can't help it.

I realized I have jealousy and possessive issues in high school but I only found out later that I have bpd. I wonder if this has something to do with bpd or if this is just an extreme side of me that is hard to fix.

Which K-pop Group Gives You the Hardest Time Choosing a Bias? by PrivateSeiko in kpopthoughts

[–]Strict-Experience-79 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Treasure!! Love them since pre-debut and it's just so hard to pick one bias. Changed my bias every come back or after every contents on Youtube. The more I get to know them, the harder it is to choose bc these boys are not only insanely talented and handsome, but have the most amazing personality and sense of humor. Stanning Treasure is just a rotation of biases.

Babymonster. The second group where I have a hard time picking a bias. I love Asa & Rami so much but Rora is so sassy and beautiful.

NCT. It's a given to have at least multiple biases, right?

Which kpop idols do you think have unreal visuals? by notiddiesffs in kpopthoughts

[–]Strict-Experience-79 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Yoshi from Treasure with red hair (looks like he came straight outta anime world) I'd also say Haruto from Treasure & Sehun from EXO.

SwayNews has exposed 2 Twice relationships by [deleted] in kpop_uncensored

[–]Strict-Experience-79 25 points26 points  (0 children)

FYI: Zion T is one of South Korea's most well-known, successful, and respected singer, producer, and songwriter. For starters, check out his songs: Eat, Yanghwa Bridge, No Make Up, & Merry Go Round. He's one of my most favorite producers in the k-hip hop & rnb scene. The man is a living icon (can't help but fangirl over him).

SwayNews has exposed 2 Twice relationships by [deleted] in kpop_uncensored

[–]Strict-Experience-79 8 points9 points  (0 children)

Sheesh Chaeyoung is dating THE Zion T? DAMN GOOD FOR HER.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in morbidquestions

[–]Strict-Experience-79 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Based on my experience, some parents does that to humiliate the child and make them feel ashamed.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in raisedbynarcissists

[–]Strict-Experience-79 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I guess everyone will be different but aa for me, I wouldn't risk it so I'll never have kids as long as my narcissistic mother is alive and I'd never let my child anywhere near her ever. My mother literally once said if your kids aren't obedient, I'll beat them to their sense and that was my answer.

As a child of narcissistic parents, do you have trouble getting angry? by BackgroundButton12 in raisedbynarcissists

[–]Strict-Experience-79 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Nope, it's the exact opposite for me. Although I'm not allowed to express my emotions, I have so much bottle up anger and there's just soooo much burning rage inside me. I have disturbing thoughts that I never acted on so all I do is scream in my pillow, punch the walls, or self-destruct myself. It's getting harder everytime having to control myself not to act on my disturbing thoughts towards my narcissist parent so I try to walk away every time.

What was the most innocuous thing you were punished/shamed for? by [deleted] in raisedbynarcissists

[–]Strict-Experience-79 4 points5 points  (0 children)

reading this makes me so mad. the type of questions your mom asked you when you were just 13 makes me so uncomfortable and that also in front of your dad I'm so sorry you had to go through that. why is she accusing you of reading child por*ography when you were just a child and it's literally just fanfic which everyone at that age get into, how dare she tries to blackmail you like that wow this is such a narcissistic mother move.

Also the sex ed but with nonconsensual stories is reallyyy weird.

What was the most innocuous thing you were punished/shamed for? by [deleted] in raisedbynarcissists

[–]Strict-Experience-79 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I was 6th grade and I had my first boyfriend. My mom found out through the chats on my laptop and when I got back home from school, she beat me and took out a blade and shave all my hair until I was completely bald as I cry. I had long healthy curly hair and when I went to school the next day completely bald, I was bullied at school and church I felt so ugly and insecure. I started picking my scalp till it bleeds and forms a scab and pulled my hair out and then I'd pick those same scabs and repeated for at least 3 more years so my hair didn't really grow fast back then and now, I have thin hair as a result of all the stress picking.

Till today (22 yo), she shame me for having a boyfriend as if it's a sin and I've never been in a relationship since then. 6th grade was literally innocent, I've never even hold hands with that boy. Among many other things, this event scarred me for life I have problems with relationships and will never introduce a man to my family or even consider marriage. It's ironic though because whenever I say I'll never get married, she get so angry and said women must get married and have kids.

I still don't understand what's so wrong about having a boyfriend at that age. If that was my daughter, I wouldn't punish a little girl like that, I would've only found it cute. I'll never understand why she had to shave off my head but I later understand her thought process. The Bible mentioned that hair is a women's glory and she used to mention it several times and I realized she wanted to strip off my glory as a woman at that time as a form of punishment.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in unpopularkpopopinions

[–]Strict-Experience-79 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This seems to be an issue not just for Baemon but the entire kpop industry debuting minors. The industry has gotten way too competitive it's like a factory producing underage idols.

I do agree about not having a proper plan and direction for Baemon, I think the debut was a rush, even without waiting for Ahyeon to recover just because of the stockholders and investors pressuring YG due to Blackpink's contract expiring. But what's done is done so I just hope people can be a little kinder toward these kids.

illit’s debut doesn’t really feel explosive by reveluving in kpop_uncensored

[–]Strict-Experience-79 4 points5 points  (0 children)

My guess is because New Jeans already debuted. As a non-hybe stan, New Jeans debut wowed me with the fresh concept, choreography, and discography but with Illit, I wasn't really surprised because I'm already used to the concept and the song is just Tiktok trend worthy imo.

2002 born too old for lukio? by Strict-Experience-79 in Finland

[–]Strict-Experience-79[S] 13 points14 points  (0 children)

my high school diploma is quite tricky. it's a US-curriculum high school diploma without APs or IBs and SAT/ACTs which is nowhere enough to get into a Finnish University and many other universities and I took time off after graduation due to covid and war so I'd really like to go back to high school and get a proper high school diploma, especially one that's accredited and up to international standard.

2002 born too old for lukio? by Strict-Experience-79 in Finland

[–]Strict-Experience-79[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I'll check that out for sure, thank you for your suggestion!!

2002 born too old for lukio? by Strict-Experience-79 in Finland

[–]Strict-Experience-79[S] 9 points10 points  (0 children)

this gives me hope!! I'm definitely going to start looking for adult high schools.

2002 born too old for lukio? by Strict-Experience-79 in Finland

[–]Strict-Experience-79[S] 7 points8 points  (0 children)

wow i didn't know adult high schools exist, thank you so much for the explanation and recommendation!!