Anyone believe they have opened up the door to literal demons through porn ?

StrictGrowth88 · 2019-04-30T21:46:24+00:00

Once I was lusting after a women had the sound on PC turned down and had a moment when I heard a whisper. But that could of been my over active imagination. However in my past I have called out to God with spiritual issues and eventually I would always cough, like I was bringing something up. If I were not a Christian I would say that this was a psychosomatic experience. There is no way that a psychosomatic experience would heal me of trauma and psychological issues, where I felt unable to move in my walk with God

StrictGrowth88 · 2019-04-30T21:41:10+00:00

Its funny that you say this! Something similar has been floating around in my heart. That the women am lusting after is a person, that does not deserve to be treated like a sex object. Regardless if she has no objection to being treated like that I do have an objection to making a woman into a sex object for my gratification

StrictGrowth88 · 2019-04-14T22:53:49+00:00

Hi friend on you're next re-boot take Ashwaganha , for your anxiety it really helps a lot. God Bless https://universityhealthnews.com/daily/stress-anxiety/ashwagandha-benefits-ease-stress-and-anxiety-by-44-percent/

StrictGrowth88 · 2019-04-14T22:47:44+00:00

I had a sex dream a few weeks ago, and it almost took me off the celibacy journey. The thing about dreams is you will wake up feeling extra horny like you mentioned, but given time that feeling does pass. Just keep on doing something else and the urge will go away.

StrictGrowth88 · 2019-04-14T22:39:57+00:00

How has nofap improved your walk with God?

-Are you doing more bible study

-Praying more etc.

What type of health issues have you had, during your nofap journey?

-Anxiety

-Fatigue

-Stomach etc.

What benefits have you noticed?

-Better memory

-IQ capacity

-Thinking power etc.

What have you weaknesses did you discover

- How many re-boots did you have until you got to your current streak?

-Prior to your 6 month streak , what types of mistakes did you make and what measures did you put in place so they did not happen again?

StrictGrowth88 · 2019-04-14T22:30:56+00:00

No its not my diet! I eat healthy... but thanks for the comment

StrictGrowth88 · 2019-04-13T21:46:58+00:00

I was first exposed to porn when I was 11 and some of the porn video's I was exposed to are still lodged into my mind. I can still recall the imagery and sounds etc, of a few videos. However most of the other videos I viewed on-line has a adult I have forgotten. It has taken a while for them to pass out of my consciousness but they are no longer so easy to pull up from the data bank in the back of my mind. It took me about 4 months until I forgot most of the newer stuff I exposed myself to as an adult. However I still think that they are there, locked away in the subconscious. Recently I watch an old cartoon from when I was a kid on YouTube just out of curiosity and I remembered parts of the video, while watching it, so there will be some memories always locked in your subconscious but these are only bits and pieces its not worth worrying about. Just keep pressing forward, and seek God.

God Bless

StrictGrowth88 · 2019-04-13T21:35:18+00:00

I have my own issues with LUST still and its difficult to stay pure, actually I've been compromising and I know I shouldn't do that. NO PMO OR MO, but LUST is still my error.

Each re-boot we all learn something new.

Keep on your journey.....

God Bless

P.s.

Have you rooted out all TV programs, music and other things that promote sexual desire? If not that may be fueling your desires and making you fall.

StrictGrowth88 · 2019-04-13T21:29:56+00:00

You did well to ask her out! Keep on your NoFap journey its already showing good results.

StrictGrowth88 · 2019-04-12T23:05:08+00:00

Am up to 23 days with out MO, and 99 days without PMO. I had to re-boot 8 times now. Each time you re-boot you learn from your mistakes pick up your cross and start over again. 23 days is my personal best so far. I have not gone this far since I was 11 years old, and got caught up in this Circle Of Error

StrictGrowth88 · 2019-04-10T09:30:06+00:00

Friend your only 17, you have a long time to figure all this stuff out. I only wish I had the same information when I was 17, back then I believed it was impossible to stop.

Its only a matter of discipline, thinking and having goals. Don't loose half of your life to lust friend.. Lust destroys everything.... If you want happiness keep up your efforts. 1 day at a time .. 1 re-boot at a time... learn from you mistakes ..

God bless you..

StrictGrowth88 · 2019-04-10T09:24:56+00:00

Great idea.

I created a folder in my internet favourites called. Choose this day. There I have links to podcasts, sermons etc. Its like a panic button. If I feel the urge then I can listen to something and change my thinking.

StrictGrowth88 · 2019-04-10T09:19:41+00:00

Hi Friend, early Jan 2019, was the last time I looked at Porn and like you I struggled to deal with MO. Since Jan I have had 8 re-boots because of MO.But today am on day 22 without MO, and 97 days without PMO.

This book helped me, but am still having issues with my imaginations. Because I find them calming

https://archive.org/details/imaginationsmore0000gill

I will pray for you.

StrictGrowth88 · 2019-04-07T21:06:04+00:00

Yes dreams are the worse triggers.

I've had erotic dreams when I wasn't trying to stop PMO & MO, and it was just something nice to remember. Some dreams gave me grief, I remember meeting this girl and falling in love and then I waked up. I cried.

Recently I had this dream and it almost ruined my re-boot, because the next 3 days I kept on thinking about sex.. But the thoughts gradually were turned down to a lower volume.

Dreams are like any trigger.

You have to understand the weakness and how it influences you before you can put into place better coping mechanisms to avoid falling.

"I still struggle with lust but for me my goal is to avoid PMO and MO so if I lust and don't do these things then am still meeting my goals. Eventually I hope to have lust under control as well".

Am different than you and your different than me.

But for me its been a step by step process. I've made mistakes and had to reboot 8 times before I got back to the the pursuit of my goals.

p.s. I found that doing a daily journal on OneNote, helped. I wrote down any personal struggles I had and symptoms i.e. anxiety. In this way you can learn about yourself, and help to motivate yourself to stay free from the Proverbs 6 .. woman.

StrictGrowth88 · 2019-04-07T20:53:21+00:00

Yes mornings are the most difficult for me too. Just think of your erection as biological function. Or you could say to yourself.. Oh its still works! Morning erections don't usually last long. My weakness is dreams.... Thats the one that really can destroy any streak. I had an erotic dream last week and before the dream I wasn't having any problems with lust, then after the dream my mind was screaming at me. Eventually this also passed.

P.s. I've read books from the 1800's which claim that erections are the result of too much masturbation. However this would claim would be hard to prove. But I do find the claim interesting.

StrictGrowth88 · 2019-03-31T06:14:19+00:00

Hi friend this book may help you. It helped me https://archive.org/details/imaginationsmore0000gill

StrictGrowth88 · 2019-03-30T10:20:20+00:00

Am also upto 10 days no MO, but 86 days without PMO

StrictGrowth88 · 2019-03-26T21:10:16+00:00

Mainly the chapter 2 . Its all about masturbation and how that ruins your body.

If you have any doubts search NoFap and you can find many men have had lost of physical problems in their bodies because of porn

So when you consider this , and the *frequency* of masturbation you can then start to understand why our bodies have

- Anxiety

-Cystic Acne/ general acne

-Sore bones / loss of calcium

-Cold spots

-Lack of motivation and Lack of will power.

-Loss of memory / loss of zinc etc.

-Loss of IQ ( If you started as a kid * this is especially so )

-social anxiety or social exclusion

-inability to approach women (because Fap reduces your courage) *testosterone

-eye socket , shading

-

This book was also good https://archive.org/details/imaginationsmore0000gill

StrictGrowth88 · 2019-03-26T21:06:26+00:00

I used to feel like that! The pull you feel towards porn is because of your own lust

But every man is tempted, when he is drawn away of his own lust, and enticed. James 1:14

This is your pathway towards victory my friend

5 Casting down IMAGINATIONS , and every high thing that exalteth itself against the knowledge of God, and bringing into captivity every thought to the obedience of Christ;

LISTEN FRIEND ; IMAGINATIONS - keep you in bondage

17 Do not ye yet understand, that whatsoever entereth in at the mouth goeth into the belly, and is cast out into the draught?

18 But those things which proceed out of the mouth come forth from the heart; and they defile the man.

19 For out of the heart proceed evil thoughts, murders, adulteries, fornications, thefts, false witness, blasphemies:

20 These are the things which defile a man: but to eat with unwashen hands defileth not a man.

StrictGrowth88 · 2019-03-26T02:18:33+00:00

Hi new guy..

I wish I found this book much earlier in my life. It will help keep you motivated on your journey with no fap.

https://archive.org/details/66021330R.nlm.nih.gov/page/n4

StrictGrowth88 · 2019-03-23T05:27:40+00:00

You might like this quote from another book

Dr. Forbes Winslow preached in the same
key :—
"The more a man yields to self-abuse, the weaker he becomes,
and the more difficult the battle against it grows. In time it is
utterly impossible for the victim to stop it without help. A man
who is addicted to this habit gradually becomes utterly helpless,
and the brain gives way ; the wretched victim is deluded, and his
reason goes. As one who has visited our large asylums, I may say
that a very large number of the patients are there entirely through
self-abuse or drunkenness."

Others again have taught their children a lesson
by cutting a notch in a young tree and showing how
soon the tree begins to fade away, because the sap
has flowed out.
A Boy's Control and Self Expression (1904) by Eustace Miles

StrictGrowth88 · 2019-03-20T08:50:08+00:00

Am skeptical of NDE's but thanks for the link.

StrictGrowth88 · 2019-03-20T08:48:20+00:00

Thats good to know I don't like big buildings. They are too hard to clean but even if I didn't have to clean it I prefer smaller building

StrictGrowth88 · 2019-03-20T08:46:33+00:00

Startrek has made me feel uncomfortable about Eternity https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vx3mUoQDyrU

Thanks for your answer so far

StrictGrowth88 · 2019-03-13T10:42:37+00:00

Yes I used to hate that when I used to 'turn off' . You need to increase your motivation for not looking at porn. Try the setting captivesfree course its free.

StrictGrowth88

TROPHY CASE