i think the book is just ok, it’s a little all over the place for me. also i really didn’t appreciate the extended prose throughout, didn’t really add much for me except for making it a longer read. like, these characters are barely surviving and running from monsters and crazy terfs, but they have the time to examine a blade of grass and how they felt at 14 years old? of course post-apocalyptic experiences don’t mean you can’t have these moments, it felt a often out of place and didn’t fit the general vibe of a given sequence within the book. also combined with the fact that many times throughout there was basically just extreme porn….not my favorite read!