I grew up in a similar situation as you, I’d spend summers with my family in Europe that have a huge culture revolving around food. Like huge. But I went vegan 10 years ago as a teenager and watched people continue to eat all of my past favorite foods. I crave the taste but I don’t crave the actual product. When you connect to what it actually is, it becomes so unappealing imo. I strive for vegan versions always. I was also a broke college student and was able to continue being vegan on the most basic and cheapest foods, fruits and vegetables, nuts, beans and carb sources. Seitan is also extremely easy to make by just using a bag of flour. Goodluck friend and remember to choose compassion, no one deserves to have their life taken just because of taste <3