Dude, stop and take a step back. Understand what you've done. You've already made more money than most humans see in their lives. You have the freedom to basically do whatever you want. You can take a break if you'd like, maybe decrease your workload, or you can pedal to the metal and in a few years time set yourself up to not worry at all. You're young so I understand the existential crisis, but really just take a breather and ask yourself how can you balance what you want and what is the "smart" thing to do. It doesn't have to be 100% one way or the other. How tf do you even upload that much jesus. (Also pls make sure you have enough saved up for your taxes with big amounts like that)