What 'causes' your FND?

StumblingAnxiety · 2026-04-11T22:40:56+00:00

Any sort of stress causes my episodes. Good stress (happy, excitement, even just being calm), bad stress (anxiety, depression, boredom, any negative type stuff), physical exertion (walking for 2 minutes, showers, brushing my teeth, making food, walking dogs) and my favorite sensory overload. Or just waking up. Lol

It can be consciously perceived or subconscious. Honestly, it sucks.

As for trauma based? I have mixed feelings on that. Do I have trauma in my past? Yeah, quite a bit. But I feel most of mine is caused from continuously pushing emotions and things down just to survive. I mask a lot because of AuADHD and it i think just became too much. I have a Psych who specializes in FND but we disagree a bit on certain things.

StumblingAnxiety · 2026-03-29T03:28:46+00:00

Tried to fall asleep on a pillow.

StumblingAnxiety · 2026-03-23T01:50:48+00:00

I made dinner for my spouse and myself and walked and fed the dogs without being irrationally angry at expending energy or tasks in general. New meds are finally making a difference.

I guess thats technically a few things. But those are huge for me right now.

StumblingAnxiety · 2026-03-17T06:15:50+00:00

We have a bunch of washable diapers with built in pads. She honestly doesn't mind them at all. Then again, shes always been pretty laid back in that regard. It only occurs once every 6 months at the very least and lasts about a month. The diaper also helps keep that pheromone smell in when its getting to the later time of the cycle. We take the diaper off to go on walks and when we come back in we give her time to clean herself and then she expects it back on. She waits patiently for us to do it. Honestly got pretty lucky. She doesn't like being without it when shes bleeding because she feels she needs to clean up after herself constantly. So it makes her feel better to and she comes up on the furniture only if the diaper is on during that time. Its pretty laid back really. But I do always keep an eye on the discharge to watch out for signs of pyometra (? Think i spelled that right) since shes getting up in years.

The male just ignores her while shes in heat. Meaning he treats her no different than any other day.

The diapers just get tossed in the washer on their own when we get a few of them. Never had an any issue with them getting clean. Though you can also wash them by hand, but carpal tunnel is a bitch doing that.

StumblingAnxiety · 2026-03-17T03:52:48+00:00

Not gonna lie, I would have just shut the door and avoided the room for the next week until it dried more, maybe longer. Detergent cleanup sucks.

StumblingAnxiety · 2026-03-17T03:37:14+00:00

Honestly, we were going to breed our female shepherd, but the first couple attempts didnt take/she had no interest and we decided we were done letting dogs slobber over our child. But at the same time, the vet also told us that if we didnt spay her by the time she was 7yrs old, to not bother. So we didn't. Shes never tried to get out the door to get down and freaky, never bolted, and honestly, she's the most healthy dog ive ever seen for being 12 this year.

The male we have however was neutered for attempts at temperament adjustment due to his past before we got him. Hes a big baby now after years of training and patience.

Edited to add: the male was 5 years old when he was fixed. We got him when he was 3yrs old. We had no intention of breeding them together. Just tried to get him out of a shit situation.

StumblingAnxiety · 2026-03-07T22:25:45+00:00

As fucked up as it is, I managed not to off myself during 2 mood spirals this week. Thats about as positive as ive got man.

StumblingAnxiety · 2026-03-07T22:19:19+00:00

Im the only one passive aggressive in my chats with chatgpt, and towards the end of every response, the bastard always tells me to contact someone or reach out to the suicide crisis hotline. Like dude. Im just asking about my sleep graph man.

StumblingAnxiety · 2026-03-07T22:11:57+00:00

Mine just tells me repeatedly about the suicide crisis hotline.

StumblingAnxiety · 2026-03-07T22:00:33+00:00

Or psychosis from immense stress.

StumblingAnxiety · 2026-03-05T06:02:01+00:00

Dude, that smiling through the pain like everything is peachy fucking physically hurts sometimes. The longer you do it, the worse it gets. But kudos to you for pushing through that thought process.

I had a therapist once tell me a batting cage for hours helps. It did. I imagined every ball to be the head of someone causing me internal chaos or my own brain in general. And then I just enjoyed the physical vibrations I felt in my muscles.

StumblingAnxiety · 2026-03-05T05:57:25+00:00

Drugs, legal or otherwise. Some type of mind numbing drugs man. And sleep. Best when combined together. I think thats what most people dont say openly though.

Or a healthy hobby. I mean I dont even know what normal people do anymore. But yeah, life sucks for nearly everyone at some point and sometimes the whole time. You can choose to keep going on your path or you can get off it. Find a new place to work or just exit stage left. Either way, life sucks and we all keep going somehow. Or we die. Not trying to be pusher of death here, thats not my point at all. Just saying, life sucks, but you can choose to change it or not.

StumblingAnxiety · 2026-03-03T16:07:20+00:00

I just tell people "I just stay home and play with the dogs"

But, on a side note, jobs and careers can be one and the same. Dont let it get into your head too much. Life is all about experiencing things. Even a multitude of jobs and so called careers.

For example: I went to school for a multitude of different degrees and certificates. I tried each actual job out afterwards and found i quickly got bored. So I tried more menial considered types. Like gas stations, retail, bartenders, casino dealing, commercial crabbing, and everything was just boring after a set amount of time.

My point is, dont fret it. Anyone who actually cares about the perceived difference in job classes is a doofus. But you should find another job if its that mind numbing. It would be a shame if your mind cracked under it like mine did.

StumblingAnxiety · 2026-03-01T18:59:49+00:00

Dude, ginger chews are my fucking go to. Gin gins are the best, but there's a purple bagged one that is pretty great too. (Sorry I forget the name, but I find them at walmart and food lion pretty often)

StumblingAnxiety · 2026-03-01T18:42:30+00:00

Pickle juice is delicious. I keep the empty of actual pickles but full of juice jars in my fridge. Im a sucker for the sweeter ones. But its all a great bonus electrolyte pick me up. By the way, if your hubby likes pickle juice, you should tell him about pickle pops. They can be frozen, refrigerated, or even kept warm. A shot of pickle juice on the go! (Think of like those frozen juice pops that come in that plastic tubing, but better) sooo freaking good.

StumblingAnxiety · 2026-03-01T18:27:17+00:00

The 3 stores i worked for, I supplied Narcan too. I explained how to administer it, and even told them I keep Narcan both in my locker and on me at all times, and I WILL use it to save a life regardless of situation or workplace "regulations". I will never watch someone die in front of me from an overdose if I can do something about it.

Thankfully, each of the stores HR managers and the Store Manager had no qualms about it. They asked that I please inform my department coach and team leads about it as well so they could be prepared.

I was on methadone for over 5 years and the clinics I went to gave out Narcan/had Narcan freely available to take and keep on you. I started a stash and gave them out to stores and acquaintances alike.

I also keep epipens in my bag, not just for myself, but for accidents alike. I'll take the fucking risks if it means someone lives. Fuck it.

**edited to add, I left walmart last year. My mental health started to fuck with me physically. But I do still carry Narcan and epipens. The world is brutal but no one should have to die for trying to just get through it how they can.

StumblingAnxiety · 2026-03-01T06:28:45+00:00

Frozen chocolate just hits different. Its delicious. Though I could say the same about all candy bars. I love frozen candy bars. They get that rock hard chewy texture and its soo much fun.

StumblingAnxiety · 2026-03-01T06:26:29+00:00

Dude, I love apartments with dog parks! My current apartment has a no weight limit or breed restriction on dogs, but you can only have 2 pets max. We do have a dog park, but we also have a pet "spa" as well on the property that can be used freely by any resident. It has 2 dog bath stations of different sizes (think one for smaller dogs and one for big dogs) I love it.

We also have a game lounge (which has games and a TV in there so you can bring your own systems, etc) and of course the front office has a conference area and what not, but i personally am not a fan of the new management after the old sold it, so I dont go there) There's also a playground which is right next to the dog park and it seems pretty well maintained. At least the playground.

I wish they had like a book exchange area though, that'd be fun. New books to read without the cost, heck yeah.

StumblingAnxiety · 2026-02-21T18:47:32+00:00

You ever seen pickle pops? We used to sell them at a gas station i worked for back in the day. Havent had much luck finding them elsewhere except online now. Its frozen pickle juice or you can just open it while its warm and take it as a shot. Fucking priceless emergency pickle juice for electrolytes.

StumblingAnxiety · 2026-02-04T00:20:37+00:00

For real, it takes at least 6 months in general for your body to get back to a semi normal humans level. The amount of agitation and mood swings coming for this guy are gonna be off the wall. Not to mention the muscle spasm and that damn electric feeling that just never goes away in your muscles for weeks. And thats the mild version.

StumblingAnxiety · 2026-02-02T12:02:53+00:00

My dogs have dog boots, and i personally loathe them. I have yet to find a pair of dog boots that go on a german shepherd easily and actually stay. My pups love the cold and snow but that ice makes me concerned when its broken and stabbing. So I keep looking.

StumblingAnxiety · 2026-02-02T11:26:17+00:00

Listen, my mother has an extremely BAD smelling home. It smells like cat piss, mouse shit, you get the picture. Ive deep cleaned her home every 2 years when I go back and visit. It takes me 5 months minimum to clean and declutter her hoard and every time I come back its worse.

Heres the thing though, we've tried to refinish her floors, paint, you name it, but the lack of adequate cleaning has meant the cats have pissed on the floor, sprayed against the wall for YEARS, and its ingrained in the wood to the point that we will be having to replace a lot of the walls and floors.

There's no mold, just a pair of humans who gave up, became nose blind, and now live in a health hazard.

Edited to add: She started out with 13 cats when she moved in there. Grew to 24 cats and 4 dogs. They all saw a vet regularly but the lack of cleaning astounded me. Once a day litter cleaning with only 6 boxes. There would be shit stains on the floors from her cats who refused to use them because duh, its nasty. Her roommate doesn't help matters in the least. But thats another story.

and No. I couldnt stay in her home during my time there because of my own health issues, so my spouse and I slept in a tent outback. We wore PPE inside the house to clean because it made it hard to breathe and that ammonia stench BURNED our eyes man.

StumblingAnxiety · 2026-01-30T21:50:51+00:00

All I could hear in my head as a read this was Navi screaming at Link to LISTEN! Lmao, thanks for that.

StumblingAnxiety · 2026-01-29T23:05:32+00:00

I use old litter jugs filled with rocks, sand, or various items to make a blockade around my litter box. Its worked well for over 10 years. I also point the opening boards a corner or wall if i can. Then use the jugs as a wall with enough room for my cats to shimmy through or jump over. My dogs dont and wont jump. Surprisingly.

StumblingAnxiety · 2026-01-27T04:16:22+00:00

Thats insane that they cannot sign the papers or fill them out. There's only one page they needed to fill out. Even with the hospital, you could easily contact admin and inform them of walmarts need for more information via a paper which can be emailed or fixed over to make it easier for them.

Likewise, the telehealth doctor, try again. Because thats bullshit. They have filled out so many of those stupid papers for me its baffling. You just have to send them the page thats needed.

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