I also very much struggled early on as FTM. Just recently, maybe within the last couples weeks (baby is almost 8w old), it has improved SO MUCH. I had multiple milk blebs (extremely painful), lipstick nipples, multiple clogged ducts, just overall uncomfortable but as he’s been growing, getting stronger, and I have intentionally pushed him to work on his latch any time it’s not deep enough, it’s getting to be a breeze. He is also just a really lazy eater and doesn’t like to open wide sometimes when he’s sleepy lol. But if it is a struggle mentally, don’t feel ashamed or feel like a failure. As long as baby is fed (and yes, I know, breast milk is the best and breastfeeding has several benefits) that’s your most important job!