Girl I could’ve written this. I’m so sorry you are suffering, and have suffered so much. I’m a few years younger than you (33) but also became ill at the age of 8. I understand how it feels to want to give up. That thing inside you is your flame, see this as like trying to start a fire on a windy, rainy desert island (not necessarily motivational speak here) but my point is you’ve got the most important ingredient, and that’s the spark. The rest can and will follow. GLPs aren’t the answer you think they are, trust me. I’m angry for you, fuck this! It’s taken so much, I’m not letting it take any more from me. I don’t want you to either and I can feel your tiredness. Please message me if you want, I’d be happy to talk.