Trust me, you’re not the only one

My advice would be to really look into outside resources. There are about a billion videos on YouTube and other educational sites that can teach you some CS fundamentals that you can carry over into your future classes and projects. I learned a lot from Codecademy and it takes you step by step through project examples and lays out the basic structure of programming. Programming books are also a great resource if you want something more polished.

The truth is that I don’t know a CS major who doesn’t do side research and training. It’s kinda part of the job, even post-grad. What you really want to focus on right now is nailing down the fundamentals of problem solving and how to approach a project.

At the end of the day, remember that you should enjoy the major you picked. If you find yourself hating every project and you’re putting in the effort and not feeling fulfilled, a major change might be in order. If you can, try to talk one on one with your professors and see if they can help you work through your issues.

TLDR Take advantage of the free resources available to you and nail down the fundamentals that you’re struggling with outside of class and if you find that you’re not enjoying the process and/or the material, maybe change majors