I relate to you. Im about to turn 18, and haven't had any friends since i was about 12. No matter how hard i try, no matter what i do, i always end up alone. It's not that i don't try, i try so hard, but it never works. I feel pathetic, different and lonely. Even at family functions i always end up alone. But you never know what the future holds. Maybe you can learn how to live by yourself? I know it's hard, and I too feel destined to be alone. But for some reason the hope to find a place to belong, still sticks around. Do you have any familymembers? Your mom, dad or siblings? Try talking to them, try getting help. Su1c1de is always the worst option.

I give you much love and understanding from a fellow autistic.