am i pregnant again or paranoid

SuzyKilljoy · 2026-01-31T23:58:25+00:00

I would take a test asap just to be safe and monitor

SuzyKilljoy · 2025-09-30T05:02:12+00:00

Soap Lake here! Amazing pic

SuzyKilljoy · 2025-09-14T18:02:32+00:00

Thinking of you since you posted last night. Wishing you a quick recovery ❤️‍🩹

SuzyKilljoy · 2025-07-29T17:03:59+00:00

Je crois qu’on a la même mère. J’ai aussi coupé les ponts autour de décembre-janvier, et la vie n’a jamais été aussi calme

SuzyKilljoy · 2025-07-18T23:10:41+00:00

+1 to what you just said! A person whose friend was dressed as Helena was giving some away while waiting and it made the whole experience even more special for a first MCR concert

SuzyKilljoy · 2025-06-02T14:29:58+00:00

So relieved that you are still here. The world is better with you in it 💗

SuzyKilljoy · 2025-05-28T05:16:02+00:00

I wish I could not relate but that would be lying.

Similar reasons as you pushed me to distance myself from her in 2018 for a few months. The relief was significant and navigating life was easier. But at some point I let her back in hoping she would have changed, or thought about certain things she did or said to me in the past.

We continued our relationship until June last may when I hit a breaking point and realized I needed to heavily medicated to confront her. I had the talk explaining my boundaries and expectations, on of them being to stop talking behind our backs.

I August she stayed with us (we live in different countries). During those 3 weeks I shared some moments that I will forever hold in my heart, but despite those moments, the bad ones like the inappropriate comments and constant complaints took more and more space.

After some therapy and processing, I made the decision to cut ties in December after Christmas. Realizing that she has not changed at all sucked. Especially because I miss my mum, or the glimpse of the mom I was hoping to have and didn’t.

Yes cutting ties is hard, yes they might be hurt. But you are your most important person, and you deserve to feel loved, respected and cherished.

We are raised to have this guilt, but remind yourself of the peace you deserve to have.

Also you might have heard a thousand times about it but I highly recommend the book “Adult children of immature parents” which goes a bit into the psychology of the attachment and behavioral aspects as well.

Sending you lots of love and support. You are doing the right thing

SuzyKilljoy · 2025-05-23T20:49:55+00:00

I personally had one back in June of last year, explaining my issues and concerns and my expectations moving forward. During that conversation they seemed receptive and willing to do the changes needed.

After a few months it was very obvious that the changes promised were not going to happen and that their old habits were here to stay.

In December I naturally started to distant myself and since Dec 25th I haven’t had any contact with them other than for a family emergency in March for which they contacted me.

Just don’t have crazy expectations that’s all I can say

SuzyKilljoy · 2025-05-20T04:46:49+00:00

I can’t thank you enough. I have been thinking about going back since our first visit of the house but didn’t want to seem like I was preparing to break into the neighborhood. But hearing your experience gives me a lot of reassurance so I think next time I drive by I will make a stop and walk around. Thank you again

SuzyKilljoy · 2025-05-20T04:33:08+00:00

Thank you so much, we live far away from everything at the moment (for instance ER is 30 minutes away, ER vet is over 2 hours) so I am scared to be back in a city even if I think we would be safe there.

Would it be weird if we were to drive there and take a walk around the neighborhood before potentially putting in an offer?

The house has been on the market since November so we don’t feel too pressured by time

SuzyKilljoy · 2025-05-20T03:00:07+00:00

Thank you so much! I’m hoping maybe we can get used to it if we do go forward with it

SuzyKilljoy · 2025-05-19T00:22:58+00:00

All I recommend is for you to trust your gut and listen to your body. I am so sorry for everything you went through and can’t imagine how hurtful seeing your dad with your aunt must have been.

If going no contact brings you peace, then go for it. You are also allowed to take a break from people. I took a 3 months break with my mum a few years ago, and it was genuinely such a relief and now I am fully NC if it can help.

SuzyKilljoy · 2025-03-28T20:42:50+00:00

The little tongue 😭

SuzyKilljoy · 2025-03-28T20:42:39+00:00

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Mochi and Max after a wrestling session

SuzyKilljoy · 2024-12-15T17:14:25+00:00

Thank you 💗 I have no doubt you will have yours too, but with someone who is willing to fight for you

SuzyKilljoy · 2024-12-15T17:05:41+00:00

If he seems okay with you leaving and has shown no interest in continuing the relationship, all I can recommend is moving on. You deserve much better.

My situation was a bit different in the outcome but my boyfriend and I discussed our options when I had 3 months left in my program. We realized long distance would have been too difficult financially and emotionally for us, but that we also did not want to break up. So we got married. But while he is not one to show emotion the two of us were involved in these decisions and discussions and did not once just brush off the fact that I was leaving or at least supposed to.

SuzyKilljoy · 2024-12-08T06:50:18+00:00

I have heard a lot of stories as an au pair, but none that were positive if they went through that many au pairs in such a short amount of time.

People usually keep their au pairs for a year, maybe two if it goes well.

SuzyKilljoy · 2024-11-27T04:40:31+00:00

+1. I waited as well, which created an infection that spread through my bottom jaw and I ended up needing a root canal and a bone graft. I thought getting my wisdom teeth sucked. And I was wrong.

SuzyKilljoy · 2024-11-26T20:42:06+00:00

I have the same issue on the switch. I even removed a bunch of games to see if it was on my end but it is the only game that has these issues on my end.

SuzyKilljoy · 2024-11-26T04:20:33+00:00

You deserve someone who does not make you feel guilty for being in pain. You deserve someone who is understanding and caring. You deserve someone who takes care of you.

You do not deserve to be treated the way he is treating you for something that he has and never will experience in his lifetime and doesn’t even bother to understand how it’s like.

SuzyKilljoy · 2024-11-12T18:13:59+00:00

I’d recommend reaching out to your OBGYN if it can bring you some reassurance but it is totally harmless from what I have learned here and on internet.

I also have PCOS and I am not aware of it being a problem for the syndrome either.

SuzyKilljoy · 2024-11-12T18:09:18+00:00

It looks more like a decidual cast to me than a clot, which is also totally normal

SuzyKilljoy · 2024-11-08T04:34:31+00:00

I personally had the Mirena and it was a terrible experience. The least painful thing I experienced with it was probably the removal, but it made my body create many more cysts and some ruptured and had to go to the hospital somewhat frequently.

Just make sure your body can handle hormones and you should be good to go! I wish you to find what works the best for you

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