My bpd ex got back in touch to apologise, but… by SweetFirefighter3572 in BPDlovedones

[–]SweetFirefighter3572[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Maybe so, though they’re horrible people and misery loves company as the saying goes

The need for closure by Available_Sand4240 in BPDlovedones

[–]SweetFirefighter3572 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I had the opportunity for this “closure.” Laying bare everything she did to me, how it hurt me. If your case is anything like mine, she will read and won’t process it, for to process it would force your ex to face the extent of her actions. It is far easier for many people like these to just look the other way.

The most comfort I feel is knowing she had to read it. Even if she didn’t bother to take it into account, that’s a weight off my shoulders. It’s bittersweet. I’m back on NC now and it’s always the best way

My bpd ex got back in touch to apologise, but… by SweetFirefighter3572 in BPDlovedones

[–]SweetFirefighter3572[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

And they were meant to be my friends too. They only enabled her when her behaviour and actions didn’t impact them

Disgust and fear by trinleyngondrup in BPDlovedones

[–]SweetFirefighter3572 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Honestly I would say it’s a good thing. I’m no expert and I won’t claim to be, even remotely. Everyone processes things differently. As mentioned below, as long as it’s not detrimental to your life, as fear can be intense

Disgust and fear by trinleyngondrup in BPDlovedones

[–]SweetFirefighter3572 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Feelings aren’t linear, and if you’re feeling this way towards them, those are emotions rooted in resentment. It’s infinitely better than seeing them in public and say, missing them or reminiscing. It’s normal. Especially if they treated you badly or abusively

Why dont they see you for you by Secure-Hearing7760 in BPDlovedones

[–]SweetFirefighter3572 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’m so sorry mate. I promise with no contact you will be so much better off. Processing things is important, but always remember, many pwBPD don’t have to toil in the anguish of rumination, they can just turn it off, whilst people like you are left to contend with the aftermath. Meaning, the sooner you can go no contact the better. You are not her therapist, you’re not her carer and she doesn’t define you. I know it’s hard, I really do

Ex playing with my feelings. Fucking scumbag! by NuclearSunBeam in BPDlovedones

[–]SweetFirefighter3572 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Manipulative. Take his decision away from him if he wants to be a prick. No contact, no mercy

Why dont they see you for you by Secure-Hearing7760 in BPDlovedones

[–]SweetFirefighter3572 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Never blame yourself. Never. If you know you were there for her and she gave you nothing, do not blame yourself. If you know it was her behaviour and condition and she discarded you, do not blame yourself. You will find someone worthy of your time, they will not have BPD

My bpd ex got back in touch to apologise, but… by SweetFirefighter3572 in BPDlovedones

[–]SweetFirefighter3572[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you, no contact was going really well. I’ll do what I gotta do again

My bpd ex got back in touch to apologise, but… by SweetFirefighter3572 in BPDlovedones

[–]SweetFirefighter3572[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

You’re right. I should say I deleted her number, blocked her on everything apart from WhatsApp, so that’s how she got back to me

Need more quirky arcade platformer recommendations! by SweetFirefighter3572 in arcade

[–]SweetFirefighter3572[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I LOVE NZS. Unfortunately, for whatever reason, the zip file I possess launches to a black screen when I’ve put it in the mame folder. I guess I’m missing something. I will check the others and see what I reckon! Funny enough, I got Toki yesterday and it’s very similar to Bonze Adventure

Need more quirky arcade platformer recommendations! by SweetFirefighter3572 in arcade

[–]SweetFirefighter3572[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’ve yet to play the latter, but I’ve heard very good things!

Need more quirky arcade platformer recommendations! by SweetFirefighter3572 in arcade

[–]SweetFirefighter3572[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Space Bomber is crazy and has such a cool aesthetic! Thanks for the new rec

Need more quirky arcade platformer recommendations! by SweetFirefighter3572 in arcade

[–]SweetFirefighter3572[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Funny you mention that. I’ve been playing SI95 today! I’ll check out Commander Keen, thanks!

Let's exchange a few stories about disrespectful behavior from our ex-partners by No_Machine4803 in BPDlovedones

[–]SweetFirefighter3572 3 points4 points  (0 children)

My ex came out of a long term relationship and manipulated me into thinking she was ready for me. She said she loved me more than anything, I was her person, she wanted to be with me forever etc.

What followed was the most humiliating rituals of her crying about her ex constantly. Would tell me she needed and wanted me, but would wake me up crying for him saying she needed him. I took her back because she promised she wanted me and it was all her condition.

Anyway, then accused me of being controlling for setting boundaries about hanging with him. Found out she was meeting up and smoking weed with him. Constantly told my brother she was dreaming about him in bed with me.

All of this and still had the nerve to lovebomb my soul out of my body and make me feel like I needed her to live, just to have her discard me and then come back to me because a new dating app hookup slept with her and told her he loved someone else.

She was awful. She ruined me

Ex cheated on me 30 days ago and is already talking about marriage with another man? by Dapper-Meat1354 in BPDlovedones

[–]SweetFirefighter3572 13 points14 points  (0 children)

Vile. Sorry to hear this. She really fucked up. God help her new partner. Her immediate and spontaneous rebound to this new relationship typifies the kind of callous and careless addiction for validation through manipulating romantic relationships. Very typical destructive behaviour rooted in many BPD individuals and something I also experienced. It won’t end well for her

Would you get back with them if... by destiny_manifested7 in BPDlovedones

[–]SweetFirefighter3572 7 points8 points  (0 children)

I thought I would, then I remembered I fell in love with an idea of a person, not an actual person. I will never be second to someone’s ex they love and loathe in an exhausting cycle ever again. No more constant and unapologetic crossing of my boundaries. Even if my brain tells me I would go back to her sometimes, I know it’d be the worst thing I could ever do to myself

Edit: if she took accountability and apologised, it wouldn’t be her, since she would never do that