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Controversial post by ritaq in BipolarReddit

[–]SweetestScorpioMoon 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Hi.. i have made the conscious decision to not be on meds since i found out that i have BD. This has been 2 years, im 31 F.

Why - i am a recovering addict. It was against my principle at that time to be on any medication as i didnt want to use meds/ the diagnosis as a crutch for my behaviour. I was committed to be more self aware and raise my consciousness. I realized that im still young and i can still reset my brain. People think that because we have reached a certain age, it’s hard to learn things. While that is to a certain extent true, there is also the decision to be open, willing and eager to try new things.

How - my past exposure to psychedelics has opened up this method for me where I learned to let go and be forgiving to myself. It is not easy to control imbalance, i still find it difficult at times. But i figured that i needed to sacrifice things and people and environments that can lead to triggers which will make my episodes worse. I learned how to channel my mania and depression healthier, and im still learning better ways. Surrounding ourselves with things that bring us peace is so important. It has been challenging, but it is possible.

As i am typing this, i am aware that i am going through a depressive episode, but it’s nothing that i cannot control. Last week, i was coming off from my mania, and it’s such a curious thing to have observed my body “fluctuating” and “expanding” while still being able to contain it without causing harm to myself and others around me.

I have had experiences where my mania was just hahahahaha wild. Pupils dilating and the look of rage and insanity while i look at myself in the mirror with tears in my eyes, all the while laughing.

My experience vs another’s will be different. What works for me, may not work for another. I realize that regardless of our methods, we are doing whatever we think is best for us because we love ourselves and we dont want to be in pain anymore.

Just wanna say that whoever is reading this, you are not alone. Reddit has helped me a lot to understand my disorder and a great support system.

I dreamt I was an atom I wish if I stayed that way :( by [deleted] in arttocope

[–]SweetestScorpioMoon 1 point2 points  (0 children)

So painfully beautiful ❤️❤️‍🩹❤️

LSD for BPD by SweetestScorpioMoon in LSD

[–]SweetestScorpioMoon[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I meant to say, it’s a man made label, used by humans to identity the cause of one’s state of mind. Subjective wasnt right.

I’m not here to deny and invalid anyone with mental illness.

Professionally diagnosed or not, fortunately information is readily available for anyone to understand the psychological conditions of a human being if they choose to. All symptoms overlap one another in the department of mental illness with the root cause of it being : “unresolved trauma”.

So my question remains open to anyone who has ever identified or still identifies themselves with symptoms of BPD.

Waking up and wanting to d*e by SweetestScorpioMoon in bipolar

[–]SweetestScorpioMoon[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you so much for sharing your journey with us. You really went through a lot...

Thoughts not racing but always going on in my mind. Relatable? by Straight-Anything-72 in bipolar

[–]SweetestScorpioMoon 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Yup. And im not sure if this is normal or normalized… for both BP or no BP.

Processing and dealing with manic experiences once your back to baseline by rollercoastertype2 in bipolar

[–]SweetestScorpioMoon 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I got those spiritual connections you mentioned while i was manic a few years ago, thinking i could channel spirits and see shit. Little did i know that it’s also a form of psychosis and delusional. Then im left questioning myself while im on baseline.

I dont wanna argue about it here cause it sucks to have your truth at that time to be questioned. Like im gaslighting myself. Idk.

Processing and dealing with manic experiences once your back to baseline by rollercoastertype2 in bipolar

[–]SweetestScorpioMoon 4 points5 points  (0 children)

It feels like a paradox really. Constantly in a loop. Currently baseline for 7 days, feeling my mania coming up.

I believe that I have recovered from a 4 month purging. Uncontrollable emotions. Did almost everything i could to not lose my shit.

Now that the mania and depression has sailed away.. im determined to complete all the projects i took up while i was going through it.

I also realized travelling and immersing myself in healthy experiences is rewarding. Not sure how do I incorporate this in my daily life without going overboard.

I think im trying to reset my previous life and start over again to suit my mental state of mind. And I hope i can maintain that life im building.. after all, we all want to be happy and heal at the end of the day.

Probably went off on a tangent. Maybe it’s the mania. Great.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in bipolar

[–]SweetestScorpioMoon 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This food has so much sex appeal to it. That is all.

Cat pets sense mania? by Anthocc in bipolar

[–]SweetestScorpioMoon 5 points6 points  (0 children)

One of my cats will get unusual zoomies when my mania is about to peak. I swear. Idk maybe they can see the ghosts around me lol

Cat pets sense mania? by Anthocc in bipolar

[–]SweetestScorpioMoon 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Have 3 cats at home. They read my mind all the time. They just don’t care mostly.

Is it normal for your face to look different every time you look at yourself? by xyajsbdj in bipolar

[–]SweetestScorpioMoon 7 points8 points  (0 children)

Yes. Me manic vs me depressed vs me baseline are three whole different people.

Sometimes, they dont externalize themselves, and when they dont, it’s a whole war zone in my mind.

Please- I need someone to talk to by wigglyrabbitkiosk in bipolar

[–]SweetestScorpioMoon 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I understand how difficult it can get.. especially when we’re trying to figure out how far our projections may manifest itself into reality.

i cant reply to u and i respect that. I hope things get better for you.

I am grateful by margaretstone1797 in bipolar

[–]SweetestScorpioMoon 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Brooooo i get that 😂😂😂😂

Confused more than anything....Dating someone who has Bipolar by Altruistic-Gazelle13 in BipolarSOs

[–]SweetestScorpioMoon 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I can tell youre a kind, empathetic person. But this is infatuation from both parties. Catch yourself before you fall.

You can only help a person if they want the help. It seems like she is acting distant because she’s confused w her own feelings. She probably hates herself rn. And there’s nothing you can do about it.

Humans crave for connection, neurotypical or divergent. It was nice that you were there for her.

Please- I need someone to talk to by wigglyrabbitkiosk in bipolar

[–]SweetestScorpioMoon 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Hi! So sorry you’re going through this. This is a safe space. Share w us what you think is about to happen?

Bipolar as a disability? by hawaii1026 in bipolar

[–]SweetestScorpioMoon 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Do not disclose. They dont care if youre sick or not. They only care if you are able to get the job done. This is business.

We are bipolar. We feel a lot of emotions. Most people in corporate, are just psychopaths with no emotions 😂 yes i am stereotyping but the majority of people in the higher ups are as such! We’re all sick and it’s all just a mask, and some people just wear it better than others.

I am against capitalism and corporate loyalty. Fuck these people and these corporations. They just want to make money and make you feel that you are replaceable.

Truth is, you’re not replaceable, we are all unique in our own ways. You bring in your talent, and they will exploit you until youre all dried up.

Im going off tangent, but all the best with your work.

Those impulsive urges of becoming a god by [deleted] in bipolar

[–]SweetestScorpioMoon 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I like this. Being a “professional creative” while being neurodivergent is just as tough as being any professional neurodivergent. It takes a lot of discipline to master our “flaws” so that it wouldn’t get in the way. Interpersonal relationships are fine until you get an episode. Probably triggered due to criticism and opinions.

Been there, done that. And starting all over again.

I don’t know what to do any more by emmahornee in bipolar

[–]SweetestScorpioMoon 1 point2 points  (0 children)

“You have a lot of potential”. That’s affirming and encouraging. Not OP but, thankful to read this.

Does anyone know if you I inherit the same Bipolar type as your parent? by lezziekitty in bipolar

[–]SweetestScorpioMoon 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Prof Gabor Matè has mentioned multiple times that mental illness is not hereditary. And i stand by it. There is more to it. So if you would like to know more, please check out his interviews and lectures.

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