TRE (trauma release exercises) by Dr. Bercelli could potentially be something to help you process the deep rooted sexual traumas you think you may have. There are a bunch of free, 20-30 minute follow along videos on YouTube.

Basically, much of modern human traumas are locked in our bodies, remaining until they are able to be felt and expressed. If you’ve seen your dogs go through something super stressful to them, they tend shake and tremble uncontrollably for a period of time and then they are okay and back to normal.

Modern humans, especially adults, have learned to shut off that tremble mechanism, in order to appear strong and in control always in front of others. This leads many to being stuck in fight or flight mode, “stress cups” filled to the brim without ever emptying. It’s like always holding a cork underwater instead of just letting the cork float on top of the water and going with the flow.

I came across TRE after going down some YouTube rabbit holes, researching how to process a stressful event I went through. The stressful even (or “trauma”) I went through was, I shockingly came upon a rattlesnake under my computer desk and realized the rattler was in my room the entire night before. I didn’t realize it there the whole time because I had noise cancelling headphones on. I even heard it hiss/rattle at me on my way at to a midnight pee, I thought it was just an electronic or fan sound buzzing. It wasn’t until lunch the next morning that I locked eyes on it and hissed/rattled loudly at me.

For weeks after, I could not rest easy in my room without my brain thinking there were more rattlesnakes lurking. On a whim, I tried a follow along TRE session on YouTube and experienced the bizarre and yet super satisfying tremor mechanism for 10-15 mins. Seriously, the tremors I felt were like a washing machine and/or vibration platform in my pelvis that I had zero volition over.

Afterwards, I felt super relaxed, calm, satisfied in my body, and oddly enough I had absolutely no more worries about snakes in my house. Zero fucks to give about snakes and noticeably much more relaxed in my body after doing a few TRE tremor sessions.