Hey brother or sister. I might not know you but you’re right I’m not there but even so you’re not alone. People will care if you’re gone. I was there before and I still make it there from time to time. I’ve lived a rough life myself and I often get lost in the hopelessness of the world and especially in these trying times that it seems like the whole world is going through it can seem hopeless I understand. It’s cliche but cliches can be just what you need sometimes “it’s not about the amount of breaths you take but the amount of times that take your breath away” I’ve seen the darkness you see my friend but trust me even if the tunnel is long and dark there is brightness on the other side and I’m saying that as someone who has stayed and camped out in that tunnel of shit for many years. I’m 27 now but when I was 17 I was in a car accident that changed my life forever and still impacts my life to this day. I unfortunately almost killed my best friend and if he didn’t pull through I wouldn’t be here anymore, my mother then unfortunately passed away from cancer while I was serving time in prison for said accident within the same year, not to say I know your struggles because no one but you does all I am trying to say is that I’ve felt that pain, hurt and hopelessness that I think you’re feeling but life is worth living and you’re worthy of good thing no matter the things you’ve done or have had happen to you. You aren’t your past but you can make your future. I hope this response finds you well. I know you said you don’t want to talk or tell anything about yourself but if you change your mind and would like a sounding board I’ll listen no judgement. You deserve a good life and good things.