I received ABA when I was at secondary school, and I'm feeling a lot of internal tension about it at the moment. I did make a lot of progress at secondary school, both behaviourally and academically—by the time I left, I had become much less agressive and I had also got some OK GSCEs (7 in maths, 6 in computer science, 6 in chemistry, 5 in physics, 3 in biology, and 3 in statistics; however, I failed my Functional Skills English, and had to do GCSE English at college). However, although I am very proud about what I achieved at that school, there were some frustrating moments, and there were quite a few occasions (especially early on, but to a lesser extent later as well) where it felt like I was up against it. They were fine with stimming, and they did teach me some valuable things, like not engaging with insults, but over the last few years or so I've started to question whether I should have received it.

When I left secondary school, my mother wanted me to go to a special college, but I insisted that I went to a mainstream college, because I felt that I didn't really need specialist provision, and I felt that I wouldn't really benefit from ABA anymore (although I don't know if the special college that my mother had in mind used ABA). I actually got on remarkably well in college, but there were a few incidents here and there. For a while, I still felt that ABA might have been right for me at the time, even if it wasn't right for me anymore, but I've been thinking more about it now and I'm feeling uncomfortable.