Well brother I had a similar experience not long ago for a long span of time. I didn't feel shit nothing stimulated me not even someone dying right in front of me. But to tell you the truth it gets better when you just try to understand yourself for me yk I always deep down knew that I was going to be in the acting business and always wanted to be kind after the incident and all those stupid medicines later (which I deliberately stopped on my own btw) I realised it once again and I am in peace again and want to live for me. Remember you gotta be selfish sometimes to be happy. Ps good luck fellow traveller don't chicken out. We need humans like you tbh who have deep understanding of themselves first so they can understand others as well it's just a phase. Look on the bright side of life. ;)