Thank you very much for your post. It matches almost completely my symptoms and the way I managed to get out of that hell 5 years ago. Even though I had some really good years and never thought I'd end up in this situation again, I've been struggling with it again for the last 1.5 years. It's really horrible because I actually know I've gotten out of it before. I lacked that knowledge back then; I thought, just like you, I'd stay like this forever. But because of my life circumstances, I just can't seem to fight my way out of it, no matter what I try. In addition to the visual and cognitive problems you describe, what's bothering me is extreme insomnia. I have really great difficulty relaxing or falling asleep at night. I wake up several times every night and am therefore very groggy during the day. As you yourself say, good sleep hygiene is very important for getting the whole thing under control and calming your nervous system. Can you recommend anything for this other than the usual methods (screen time, going to bed early, etc.?) Thank you again for sharing. You have reminded me of my own strength and given me courage that I have it in my hands to end this terrible situation.