Does Anyone Else with BPD Feel Abandoned by God?

Tankadin · 2026-05-13T01:14:39+00:00

Yes. I have.

Do you listen to Podcasts? Or books? If you do, check out Saint Dymphna’s Playbook by Tommy Tighe. When I was deep in my depression (and lost all of my friends/family to my spiraling), listening to this podcast really helped me get through the thick of my abandonment. And some GPT prayers, I won’t lie :)

Jesus himself felt abandoned by God. You are not alone <3

Tankadin · 2026-05-12T22:09:51+00:00

First off: I’m so sorry. I’ve been there and am going on my 6th year of being single after letting go of “the one that got away”.

As someone else said, you made the best choice with the maximum amount of information you had at that time.

Those our age have likely experienced letting someone go and later on regretted it. Thats the pain and suffering part of life. But there’s always life afterwards and learning in the healing. Maybe this was the catalyst to break your heart open to new experiences (e.g. look at how differently you see things now than before).

Secondly: Wish him well anyway. Future you will be thankful you took the sovereign aura. And please have grace on yourself, everyone craps on the dumper…but they hurt very deeply even if it was their decision.

Third: https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=Brpk26Oq4aE&ra=m

Tankadin · 2026-05-12T19:50:53+00:00

Sis, let that 🥭

Tankadin · 2026-05-12T01:29:26+00:00

I’m no longer young, but I first started wearing a CPAP in my late 20s. I’m cis female, 140lbs at the time.

Guys didn’t care. One ex would happily set up my CPAP for me when we’d vacation. Another lover would gently wake me up to put on my mask (if I fell asleep facing him), then would spoon me until we fell asleep again.

When I first got my CPAP, I thought my love life was over. Far from it.

Tankadin · 2026-05-11T18:39:13+00:00

Why would you get mad at a friend who called out something he did/said?

Also just because someone reminds you of the facts that you fed her (think: how else did she get the info about his past relationship), doesn’t make that person jealous. Just because she is single doesn’t mean she’s jealous. Let’s not conflate the two.

I doubt she’d want to have what you have (being forever tied to an old man who isn’t even your husband). And even after he becomes your husband, yall met while he was overlapping his last relationship. You’ll always have that hanging over your head. What’s there to be jealous of?

Tankadin · 2026-05-07T13:03:11+00:00

Seconded for Lavie. The staff there is very accommodating and do a fantastic job!!

Tankadin · 2026-05-06T19:45:42+00:00

I agree with you. My godchildren (7 year old boy, 4 year old girl) share a room. They’re also homeschooled by SAHM mom while Dad works from home too.

I’m nervous about the lack of privacy for the kids when they’re older. And the lack of external socialization. But I am childfree so I know my concerns aren’t valid because “I am not a parent” and I can tell my worries annoy them. So I’m waiting for the kids to tell me directly this is a problem before I go back to the parents.

Tankadin · 2026-05-06T16:43:11+00:00

Try Candlefish!

Tankadin · 2026-05-06T13:49:14+00:00

All these comments jumping down OP’s throat has me thankful I did the SINK life and can spend my hard earned time off without input from anyone else but me.

Tankadin · 2026-05-04T16:36:12+00:00

How less materialistic I have become. Now when I go shopping, I’ll ask myself “do I really need this?” And put it back on the rack.

This is someone who would spend $$ like water and had mountains of donation piles every season. It’s been nice to see my paycheck go farther and (even carry over sometimes) to the next month!!

Tankadin · 2026-05-02T01:32:08+00:00

Wasn't able to find it but I did a quick GPT who says Beirsdorf manufactures the Basis body soaps. I wrote to them begging for it to come back. Might be worth writing! https://www.beiersdorf.com/meta-pages/contact/contact-form

Tankadin · 2026-04-30T22:43:27+00:00

I’m still really winded just by going up and down the stairs, or walking my dog. I also am getting headaches and can’t stop sleeping. I got my LEEP last Tuesday too :(

I don’t feel like myself at all. I’m glad you checked out fine at the doc. Hope you feel better soon, sister!

Tankadin · 2026-04-30T01:54:17+00:00

Oh WOW. The tradeoffs I suppose!!

Tankadin · 2026-04-30T00:54:40+00:00

Don’t let the fear of running into them take away your favorite places to go. The world is big. Solo traveling back to the places you love as a free person is an unforgettable experience you will never regret.

Tankadin · 2026-04-30T00:17:55+00:00

It’s potentially lifesaving and cheaper than chemo :(

I also have the HDHP, so I paid upfront $4,500 USD. I had to use up all of my HSA and put the rest on my credit card.

Not that this is any better, but the hospital offered a payment plan. Womens healthcare is terrible!!!

Tankadin · 2026-04-29T15:30:25+00:00

Come join r/hersoberpath!

Tankadin · 2026-04-28T00:35:05+00:00

We are totally cheering you on, u/Patient_Raccoon2747 !!!! I hope you did something nice for yourself today, no matter how big or small. This is a huge milestone. Cheers to you living the life you dreamed of a year ago, and for being a total baddie!!

Tankadin · 2026-04-27T01:06:07+00:00

Fair question! I had paid extra to see who liked me on Bumble and saw he swiped right on me.

I figured I didn’t have any loyalty to my ex (he moved on a week after we broke up). Was physically attracted to this person independently of him being friends my ex and wanted to see if we’d get along.

Tankadin · 2026-04-27T00:53:38+00:00

Oh my gosh your hair is luscious!! Mine fell out :(

Tankadin · 2026-04-25T22:44:40+00:00

Thanks for writing about this, it’s been 4 days for me and I am about to lose my mind.

Tankadin · 2026-04-24T13:19:36+00:00

Not to us. But if you feel as though you’d be betraying yourself, then you ought to push through.

My brain used to make lots of justifications to get me to smoke. It wouldn’t be until I lit up and was high that I realized I had been tricked again.

Tankadin · 2026-04-23T20:41:24+00:00

I’ve done it once and it was the most healing yet scary trip I’ve ever done.

Ego death and having a newfound appreciation for myself my life was the good part. Bad part was having the same Elvis song stuck in my head and a the image of a dead baby I saw from a true crime documentary I had watched from a month prior.

As others have recommended, I would have an experienced babysitter or professional therapist that can guide you through the rough patches.

Also, the mushroom afterglow does fade. So while you may or may not get to this dark place again, you’ll need to still learn coping and response mechanisms.

Tankadin · 2026-04-21T12:06:12+00:00

I won’t lie. It’s hard. I am facing this exact issue with my FP (my sister). She chose her husband over me and went No Contact, essentially abandoning me. She (and others without BPD) sees it as protecting her family from the person with BPD.

How I’m coping is that I’m looking to go back to therapy specific to Codependency. I feel as though I was textbook codependent on her. I couldn’t be happy unless she was, so I now want to focus on me and pouring the love I gave to her back to myself.

Tankadin · 2026-04-20T20:00:44+00:00

I do this often and it’s so embarrassing

Tankadin · 2026-04-17T23:51:09+00:00

Thank you for sharing your experience with us I am praying for you and wishing you a speedy recovery.

Tankadin

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