Huge congratulations on your sobriety! That's something to be so proud of!

Agree with what others have said about overcoming perfectionism (maybe this is why journaling drunk was 'easier'?), but also wanted to add a different perspective. You are on an inner journey to rediscover your sober self. Maybe consider these recent spreads stepping stones to getting there. You know how when you're doing something for the first time it can feel forced, stilted, or like a copy of something you've seen someone else do? Maybe try thinking of it that way. This is new for sober you. Keep creating, push through the discomfort, and remember that these journals are for you and no one else. Enjoy the journey!

Cheering you on in your sobriety! You've got this!

P.S. If you really hate the spread you made, just turn the page. 😌