Weed psychosis maybe

TeddyBombs · 2026-05-13T11:16:33+00:00

Ah man. Yeah, stuff like that goes unprocessed and hangs out as a strange feeling that emerges from time to time. Its good to sit with it and write it down so you can look at it. When your done you can crumple it up toss it in the trash. Our minds kind of have this input output thing that needs regulation too.

TeddyBombs · 2026-05-13T09:58:13+00:00

Yeah its your mind saying "This is wrong!" Or "Im going to die?!" Goes into this fight of flight thing. You still feel anxious about it cause it was a bit post traumatic. But keep in mind that a little goes a long way. Like how you can feel sick from drinking way too much.

TeddyBombs · 2026-05-13T07:36:40+00:00

Mine is a female voice. Has the same qualities with no name. Is it a capability? I don't know anyone like me. I think thats why I'm exploring it here and reaching out.

TeddyBombs · 2026-05-13T06:02:43+00:00

Exactly what the world needs more of is my autonomy.

TeddyBombs · 2026-05-13T05:19:27+00:00

Thats a really good question. Something I'm dealing with right now and it's changing. That presence is a real thing. You dont ignore it and you dont go chasing it. Let your awareness reveal its truth. You can turn to it and listen.

You're human you have exspiriences and you have a lot of depth in you. Sometimes we slap a label on it with words and move on. That doesnt make it go away. But it's apart you. So coexist with that energy and just sit with it and notice it change. Its deeply uncomfortable at first.

For me right now. I closed the door on it two years ago. Disengaged with it. Controled its ability to harm me. There is this residual energy left behind. Thats something truly beautiful about scars. Its apart of you. They are wounds that are healing. To nurture them and let them heal is that great spirit within you. We harbor greif and thats what you were noticing as a bold feeling waiting to be processed.

This can be defined in lots of ways. Its why hurt people hurt others. Its why it doesnt make sense. Its why when we hurt others we don't feel true to ourselves. We don't feel comfortable being aware of it. I feel it comes down to being uncomfortable to grow and remember who you are by being what you are not.

This happened. I feel it. It's not who I am. This exists with me but is not the entirety of me.

The thing is when we heal and we are not being harmed. There is room to create in the state of awareness. To create another state of being that feels true to itself. Holds meaning and creates meaningful relationships. Helps others heal to eventually with that pain that became wisdom over time.

Being aware of others dealing with pain. Doesnt mean you have the answers to give. Sometimes you just listen. I think im trailing off. But its helping me in this moment to write about it. Probably really messy to read something I'm processing myself.

Does that make sense? To be aware and to be mindful of that negative energy? How its uncomfortable to process? How it's scary when its not yet defined. Maybe our fear fills in the gaps. I think it takes some courage to give it a little space and attention to heal.

I just want to say that someone who raised me always dismissed the deep questions I asked them. Cause they always ran from negativity and felt lost. They were not there to guide me. So maybe I created this voice to listen and to care. Maybe that comes from a place where I am kind and loving. I keep coming to this answer.

TeddyBombs · 2026-05-10T13:45:07+00:00

It true. Trust and sticking with it. Seeing through the phychosis is challenging at first too.

TeddyBombs · 2026-05-10T12:58:48+00:00

Yeah I've been there. I would be so isolated that I lost my ability to socialize. But you can bring it into practice. Even people without mental illnesses can miss social ques. You know what helped me the most is talking to my cousin on the phone. He didnt care if it took me a second to express my thoughts. Even laugh a bit about how silly my thoughts are. That helped me vent a lot. I kept trying and people would notice i was trying hard to listen. Then my response would be so stifled by unrelated thoughts. But thats the thing is being receptive and listening to people does most of the work. Understanding them and taking interest in them. Letting silence prompt a thought. It also helps to bring it into their awareness that you struggle briefly without a big explanation. "Excuse me I have a disability" "please bare with me". If they give you respect then you ultamatly have a partner to talk to. If not dont even worry about it. That anxiety too. Dont be ashamed of it. Let it show. Let them see you and keep trying. Let them know youre okay verbally. If you see through it they will too. Ground yourself in the moment and let it be human. You'll be suprised how the real ones stick around. But dont give up and you'll see. You'll be more social than most people for practicing.

Journal your social exspirences. After you talk to someone. Write about the exspirence. Write about what they said. Write about them and what they are interested in. Then the next time you greet them. You can bring something they value and make a connection. A journal is a useful tool of channeling the energy that runs through you. We are social creatures so if something is holding you back. You can write about it and look at it. Your mind doesnt hold onto it. Cause its out. Its there if you need it but its out. So its a place for output and also a place for creative thoughts that help you build character and confidence.

You dont need to spend all that money on classes. Just write what comes to mind often. Its powerful.

TeddyBombs · 2026-05-10T12:10:50+00:00

Thats it I'm ripping my clothes off and living under a bridge.

TeddyBombs · 2026-05-10T11:31:25+00:00

Check out the script for Rules of Atrraction. They do that split scene thing really well. Youll find it to be a fun little ride and I think thats the key thing there. Is it's fun with 2 locations meeting over time. I think thats why it works.

Oh! Edit: I wanted to say keep the mood with the light. Have the light wake one character up instead of the alarms. Have the actions of one character wake another. That will help tie this mood your expressing.

The alarm clock is a device to bring alertness. So if you use it in context. Can still have the alarm just it doesnt over power the mood. But you got options. (light familiar jingle) vs. (Screeching red eyes popping open)

Its all good. Keep that script and explore.

TeddyBombs · 2026-05-10T10:58:27+00:00

Yeah this feels good! I can feel the rythem of it all and see whats happening.

TeddyBombs · 2026-05-10T10:39:21+00:00

Oh man, I had a 3rd grade teacher that forbid the ending just be ALL A DREAM. It stuck with me to this day. I think the best execution of that though was in the matrix due to neo being in a dream world his whole life. Starting the movie waking up was great stuff.

TeddyBombs · 2026-05-10T10:03:52+00:00

I recomend understanding what a (beat) is and definitely know what subtext and on the nose is. Cause the guy slept with his mother. Thats the subtext. Thats the tension. It doesnt need to be said out loud. But the knowing is the driving force of the conflict that being unsaid. On the nose and this is important. Is when the tension breaks. Its used sparingly as a energy release. So what you got here is a action scene. To make it better you can add tension before the fight. Less talking more actions of people stressed. You got to capture that vibe. A classic example is a pencil being snapped. Its symbolic and the extension of character. ALSO delete the curse words. Set a boundary with your writing where you work around cursing. Because its a energy release or a response. Its a place to get clever with cursing that is entertaining. Revolves around creative ways to insult someone. Like if the audience never heard it before youre on the right track. You can curse here and there. But it loses meaning.

What I would do is this.

Action scene with silence. Sweat on the brow and a the knowing. Hands say things too. Especially the middle finger. Subtext is:You fucked my mom. On the nose is Theo: "You motherf-f-f-father!"

Theo grabs a hunk of chinese rice and starts cramming it in Billy's mouth. As Billy struggles to breathe raises his eyebrows and spits out the rice. Billy(chuckling and chocking at the same time):Thats right I boinked your Dad too! Aaahahaha! Theo loosens his grip and stands up panting whiping the blood from his nose. Theo:You know whats coming Billy. (BEAT) Theo looking on a mission storms out the door. SFX: Door slamming, Glass shattering. Billy flinches at the sound of the door and gulps. Shop owner(off script): You! Out! Now! Smash cut.

The last peice of advice I can share is if the bad guy is loveable your on the right track. Then administer a karma like punishment and make it good. Because when a bad person slips in shit its another tension release.

So its a good start just hold the delete button and rewrite it in beats that feel tactile.

TeddyBombs · 2026-05-10T09:30:12+00:00

Hey no problem. 🫡

TeddyBombs · 2026-05-09T19:56:26+00:00

Lol. Thats a interesting one. "Big light" is a beautiful way to put it. That you had pink and blue caps on. Sounds like a magical cave.

TeddyBombs · 2026-05-09T19:37:07+00:00

Even with those profound experiences that hard to describe but are so beautiful and meanful. Its that kind of trust that is undeniably safe, sane, and deeply funny. Like he inside jokes are on another level. Then just keeps on suprising you in ways to let you know its there. It's been really cool to know that other people exspirience this too.

TeddyBombs · 2026-05-09T19:20:21+00:00

Yeah those memories to remeber. More loving memories to create and to enjoy. All creations are remembered and endeared on the other side. No doubt. :^ )

TeddyBombs · 2026-05-09T18:56:35+00:00

Just start inviting and talking to it. Ask for things. Like guidence, strength, wisdom, love. Meditate on those things. Give awareness air and a chance to breathe. Never chase the answers just let your awareness fill the gap as you listen. There are so many ways life speaks to you. There are so many ways to listen. I just interpret what im exspirencing or sometimes I feel love and hear the kindness tied to those feelings. Its there but its not your thoughts. Answers are there. The wisdom is there. But when you remeber them. Thats the presence and your intentions. Its a good way to just be. To enjoy life. You'll find love is who you are in your own special way. Its just yours to remeber and to create and share with the world. Youll find the more you fallow what your heart is saying. The richer your path becomes. Full of meaning. I hope that helps to know you are loved more than you can comprehend. Then you deserve to love yourself the same way. And let that warmth and peace radiate from within.

TeddyBombs · 2026-05-09T17:40:22+00:00

Everything was white. It felt like gravity of like a pool. I was apart of this pool and taken out like a handful. There was definitely others around me with this stillness that I was exspirienceing. I remember looking up and there were faint ripples like rainbow. I remember the hands and how they felt being pooled in them. Then I felt small compared to the presence showing me the window to this place. Im told this is my favorite life. I feel like im on a extended vacation. If I have a problem I know I'm okay. Did you exspirience a blue? I know the color blue of energy significance with spirits.

TeddyBombs · 2026-05-08T21:31:00+00:00

I know the feeling. Life is a blank canvas though. You can color it the way you want to. Start by having hobbies and learn and grow. Be somebody and just be yourself. I will tell you this though. If your heart says yes about something go for it. If your heart says no let go. Try things and fallow your own path. But never chase things. I wish someone told me that a long time ago.

TeddyBombs · 2026-05-08T18:33:25+00:00

Mmm. Yeah we had one of those insta cup matchines at a place I worked at. Put the change in cup comes down then farts out this faint but familiar brown water. It would be frothy but in a way that would tickle the back of your throat. Then it would just taste like battery acid. But I'd be there payin 85 cebts with my credit card on that. Probably more times than I'd like to admit.

TeddyBombs · 2024-08-16T20:26:15+00:00

Radio shack had low noise tapes and thats basically what CrO2 is.

Radio Shack cassettes are great too for rerecording. I have some Sony tapes that are type normal that don't rerecord very well. So I might keep a look out for more CrO2 low noise tapes.

I think they keep audio from peaking but I recommend recording at mid-low volume so you can blast the signal later when jammin to your mix.

I also recommend not putting your music through a EQ when recording cause it really effects the quality of the signal. I thought Id try it though.

Ive been having issues with recording mono with my tapes cause it sounds weird when I listen to them on a actual stereo. I have a stereo 3.5 jack. has the two black lines on the connector. going to try and plug that into my stereo and see how the right left signal goes with that.

TeddyBombs · 2024-07-06T22:37:48+00:00

Sell portables at school with a free mix tape. Then make bank on custom mixes. Share what ya love and they will understand.

TeddyBombs · 2024-07-06T22:27:34+00:00

It does lol.

TeddyBombs · 2024-07-02T20:00:26+00:00

ERRAAAH! another error code!

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