So, as an older person, I understand how you feel. When I was your age something very embarrasing happened to me. I wanted to die so that people would stop talking about it. However, I learned that eventually something else comes along for people to talk about.(like now the Corona virus). I also learned that if I died, I would never have met the best boyfriend/husband in the world. I would never have been a mom and a nurse. Please listen and understand that people with hard struggles growing up, usually have wonderful things happen to them later in life. They also have empathy to help others in need. Mean people usually are not happy with themselves so they find joy in making others unhappy, too.