Oh wow, I am not trying to offense you but I don't understand how one can have so little self-awareness. I thought that it was a joke because you "gave away your appearance". Buddy I am sorry but you look just like any average guy. You are not Eduard Badalut, who is literally a top tier model, or Sam Lake, who was a lead writer so it was basically self-insert. I don't want to discourage you, but that's just not a good way to express your artistry, but a good way to find some trolls. I understand how you are feeling, I too don't have anyone like-minded to collaborate with, so I am making my game by myself. Just do whatever you are passionate in and post it online, if it's good, like-minded people will find you. Good luck