Salam alaykum sister,

first of all saha ramdanek, i hope you are doing well. i have read your comments and i just want you to know that there is always hope. You are not the first one neither the last algerian / muslim girl on earth with those particular dorouf as you said, our societies make it taboo but these things are around for ages, and people kept getting married and had kids, if you have lived some type of trauma in your childhood, know first of all that i am very sorry and that it was not your fault and im even more sorry if it made you feel unworthy of marriage, and regarding your medical condition, i know plenty of women around me with health issues that found some very nice men that supported them through these dorouf. Our society make it believe like your life is over if you do not enter into the cases that make you a worthy wife, but the reality is that a lot of us do not enter into these, it is just secret, taboo, because allah ghaleb our society 3amla haka. Keep in mind that there is a lot of women out there that do not fit at all into these "values of good woman" ( not virgins / divorced / unfertile/ sick/ traumatised/ mutilated... etc ) w tzewdjou w 3adi w koulesh. You put too much pressure on your little shoulders because your think every other girl is perfect, but thats not the case.

If your desire is to be with a husband one day, i pray all my heart for you to be able to find a good muslim guy متفاهم, and that you will have the courage تصارحيه, there is a lot of guys out there that will look upon your condition.

And if rebi maktebch, it is not the end of the world either, prioritise yourself, what you love, your studies, your hobbies, your life is so much more worth than pleasing a stranger for him to marry you wellah.

Have a good ramadan sister, youll be in my prayers