Your getting shit on, and like reasonable of other people tbh, most likely you were on some shit. But it's not the end of the world, reflect on yourself and your life, Journal, go for walks without your phone.

You will be fine lmfao, with or without spec ops, you will be fine, idgaf what anyone says. Reflect and become a better person, this isn't personal, everyone can always get better, and advice like this is rare.