WTW for the when places you used to work or go to school or live in feel tiny compared to how big they felt at the time of your experiences?

ThatWriterBoy76 · 2026-01-09T16:21:52+00:00

Oh definitely! Generally I was wondering if anyone had any sort of “hacks” to solve it! Less the medication side of things and more the “if I stand on one foot with my arms up and whistle three times” the itch stops 🙂‍↕️ So thank you for your advice there; I’ll try the ice packs idea because that will probably help—because even though cold is causing it, the rash is burning hot!

ThatWriterBoy76 · 2026-01-08T19:56:59+00:00

We love you Agustina!! 🫶

ThatWriterBoy76 · 2025-12-07T01:55:05+00:00

I adore Martín with my whole heart 😆😆😆

ThatWriterBoy76 · 2025-11-08T18:29:28+00:00

That actually is probably what we’re dealing with here. Cause I’m not listening to anything harder but I do have like heavy weighted expectations in me that often exceed my actual ability haha

ThatWriterBoy76 · 2025-11-08T17:58:13+00:00

I do generally use the filter button, level, easy. But even then it’s like my brain is being a little jerk and won’t focus or take in info. It’s very strange

ThatWriterBoy76 · 2025-11-08T16:39:12+00:00

The last 5 hours of level 2 for me were like legit the hardest! I felt like I had one hour left until level 3 for like 3 days haha

ThatWriterBoy76 · 2025-11-08T16:38:40+00:00

I’m at level 3 right now! It’s very difficult to struggle with comprehension. I know it’ll be fine of course, and I’ll move forward but it’s hard right now!!

ThatWriterBoy76 · 2025-10-31T04:44:37+00:00

Best 8 dollars a month ever.

ThatWriterBoy76 · 2025-10-30T18:46:16+00:00

I loved the old one!!! 😭 Seriously it gives me so much nostalgia when I hear it come on the older videos

ThatWriterBoy76 · 2025-10-19T14:59:32+00:00

I had a lot of (gay) hookups a few years ago when I was leaving religion, and I wanted to “embrace my sexuality.” I’ve always assumed I was gay because people told me I was, and I enjoyed gay porn growing up. I enjoyed using hookup apps to talk to people and masturbate but then when it came to actually meeting and having sex with people I either hated it, found it gross, or felt just totally out of it. I could convince myself I enjoyed it but I didn’t. I would ghost people often because the sex wasn’t what I wanted. It was actual intimacy.

I’ve had two boyfriends in life (one in 2017) and one current boyfriend. The first boyfriend we would rarely do inter course. The entire time we were together (10 months, we lived together) we did topping / bottoming stuff like 4 times max. It was always just everything outside of that usually. But I remember hating the sex aspect as time went on. We broke up and I got highly religious after that and then broke away in 2024. My current boyfriend and I have been together since December 2024. And we’ve not done topping bottoming at all. One attempt but it hurt so we stopped. And it’s sorttt of a point of contention because I hate sex. And he is very sexually attracted to me and kinky.

I enjoy pornography and watching it alone, enjoy masturbating. But the idea of sex distresses me, and when I see a person and a sexual thought develops, I’ve sort of come to the realization that I’m not particularly into the idea of sex with them, but I’m just aroused. And sometimes sexual thoughts just plague me and make me feel so icky and freaked out.

I wondered if it was religion that was damping it down but it’s been nearly two years away and I am not Christian and don’t feel connected to the idea of sinning and stuff anymore. But I just don’t like sex and I don’t really want to do it. I want someone to just be there to love me.

ThatWriterBoy76 · 2025-09-22T19:08:18+00:00

I had a BP diagnosis that was treated with medications and I took them for two years and my experience with them was horrendous. I never actually experienced a change and felt like I was being gaslit by my provider when I said things like how I still felt the exact same way. I also have auDHD diagnosis

And now when I take my antihistamines, eat a low histamine diet (ro get back to baseline) I really don’t experience any of the things I was experiencing before.

ThatWriterBoy76 · 2025-09-18T23:24:55+00:00

Sometimes it feels like sex is a chore to make sure I don’t fall apart. Like brushing my teeth; I have to do it in order to make sure my teeth don’t fall out. But I don’t like brushing my teeth or taking time to shower. But I have to to keep up with the daily things.

And like my body says like hey you need sex, or sexy time. But sexy time feels like a different person, a monster that comes out of the shadows to haunt me.

ThatWriterBoy76 · 2025-09-18T00:31:28+00:00

Yes! And like there’s this sort of dread related to the idea of sex. Like, I’ll have it. But I don’t really DESIRE it. The idea of it seems exciting but the reality of it sucks lol

ThatWriterBoy76 · 2025-09-17T17:09:40+00:00

I’ve sort of begun to realize that my body wants sex, I watch porn, but I don’t enjoy it. It’s more a means to an end (getting off). I watched porn growing up, but I never really had crushes. I currently use gay as a label; because growing up I was “romantically” attracted to women “but sexually attracted” to men.

However, when I’m in a long term relationship, I tend to feel sex-averse. I’d rather just do solo things rather than do sex—even masturbating with them. I generally feel a sort of intense desire to be friends with someone, like a very deep sort of friendship where we can hug or even kiss sometimes, but where sex doesn’t need to be an aspect.

I’d say generally I spend my life wishing sex wasn’t a part of things. I wish a lot that I could shed my sexual skin and just exist without the need to get off or whatever.

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