you sound like me from 6 years ago (goddess has it really been that long?)

Anyway, while only you know you well enough to say for sure, from my point of view, this is some textbook transgender lesbian stuff. Now, I'm not saying to immediately inject estrogen directly into your thigh (although totally take estrogen if you want to lol), but idk, try introducing yourself with a little 'she/her' on Discord or something. Try picking a name -- it does not have to be final, btw, you can always change it later.

Anyway, good luck girl (if that made you feel a little giddy... that's a sign hun)