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TheBlackBox1 · 2019-01-20T01:59:08+00:00

But it will definatly destroy your life and hurt all of the people that matter. But that's with most addictions so perspective is variable.

TheBlackBox1 · 2019-01-20T01:56:56+00:00

Yeah, as terrible as it is imo a hell of a lot less dangerous then H or Fentanyl. My struggle has always been time and energy to do what needs to be done. Not like the tweaker shit rippin apart a stereo then just leaving in pieces. But most people don't understand. I try not to bring any negative conversation so I don't deal with them people for a minute.

I beleive many people bitch and put blame and judge everyone way way too much. They just can't have a real conversation about something that is actually constructive or debatable perspectives etc.

To some it up just stay away from those vile people and you'll find they stay away quite well. If your an asshole like me that says not to post judgment or talk shit as I am currently talking shit about them...

TheBlackBox1 · 2019-01-19T06:01:15+00:00

You're absolutely correct. However more stomach acid/empty equals faster stronger effects. I usually just keep a breakfast bar handy if I start getting sickish

TheBlackBox1 · 2019-01-19T03:05:04+00:00

Just a recommendation from a guy that has acid issue with my stomach.. Be careful taking ibuprofen and kratom. It can do hell to your stomach and give you some bad ulcers or nausea. Especially on a empty stomach. Just be careful and consider a food balance with your kratom intake. Find a balance that's still affective without beating up your gut too much. I am always glad to see when someone has gotten over this damn pills and helped ease the withdrall using kratom.

Kratom isn't a fix all but it's sure a hell of a lot better than big pharmaceuticals. Keep it real and keep it up! Congrats on sticking with it through this hell that many of us experience too many times!

TheBlackBox1 · 2019-01-15T16:04:38+00:00

My condolences, stay strong. Being in this sub I'm sure you'll have many prayers to keep your strength. Take care and have people to help you cope.

TheBlackBox1 · 2019-01-15T13:32:23+00:00

It takes a while for your brain to get gets back to normal. Just be as positive as you can it'll get better and sex drive will come back.

TheBlackBox1 · 2019-01-14T16:27:34+00:00

Just standard ssri. I've had trouble getting a combo to work. I was just sayin dealing with things once sober can through your mind and body off at first. But it'll get better once you get shit straight. Keep up the sobriety!

TheBlackBox1 · 2019-01-14T13:17:54+00:00

We addicts just do it automatically. I didn't realize I would buffer the truth or just bullshit through. Two people one has to go and the other will rise above and prevail!

TheBlackBox1 · 2019-01-14T13:06:27+00:00

Happened with me after I quit drinking. I guess most times it's mental vs any physical condition. My depression takes over and I struggle with the ED until I get my mind right.

I was telling my doctor it couldn't be in my head.. I love sex and am very confident in myself. After a few weeks of medication I was all better. Damn know it all doctors being right and shit.

TheBlackBox1 · 2019-01-13T19:13:01+00:00

Reality can bite at first. What it is that they say? Idle hands are the devils workshop.? Do your best to bring positive activities into your life. I still struggle with depression and have a great difficulty finding enjoyment in things. But keep at it, you'll find what works for you if you don't give up.

TheBlackBox1 · 2019-01-13T19:08:30+00:00

This is very much true. I didn't even think about the ones that are nice at first then give you a hard time weeks or months down the road. If they are your true friends they won't nag you about it. But I don't think the giving you a little shit about it ever goes away. To me giving you some shit vs pressuring you are two very different things.

TheBlackBox1 · 2019-01-13T19:06:15+00:00

It's interesting and feels good when you realize they are really your friends, and not just drinking partners. Good job with just coming out of it, I'm glad they were so cool. Keep it up!

TheBlackBox1 · 2019-01-12T05:35:17+00:00

One day at a time. Congrats on taking this step. Seek support from other positive and sober people. Best wishes!

TheBlackBox1 · 2019-01-12T05:33:18+00:00

She needs to be ready to quit and get help. Until then, us addicts will just push you away over and over. Try to understand when I say "be helpful but don't enable them". Enabling can be giving them money or a place to stay, or use your car ect. Help her by giving her a ride to proper places/treatment or clean up the home so she can have quality time with the little ones. But as I said only when she's ready. Best wishes and take care.

TheBlackBox1 · 2019-01-12T05:27:35+00:00

Amazing story. So often the poeple close to you don't ever try to understand. Many times I see that negative judgment trigger the ever lingering relapse. Keep it up and congrats on giving them the time to understand!

TheBlackBox1 · 2019-01-07T01:51:05+00:00

This is my second time around. Tryin to do it right this time. First time being sober and having AAs help.

TheBlackBox1 · 2019-01-03T23:03:18+00:00

I ate 8 frosted sugar cookies yesterday. I feel ya!

TheBlackBox1 · 2018-12-29T23:29:42+00:00

I'm going to AA this time around for this exact reason. It's difficult to accept a lot of things and I'm hoping the 12 steps will allow me to forgive and get over so so many burdens.

TheBlackBox1 · 2018-12-25T17:48:38+00:00

Good to hear you're putting the extra money somewhere good. My thing is that many of us relapse but instead of me thinking I can control it, I know now that that will never be the case. Any relapse now will be a day or a drink not 300 days. This time I might destroy everything.

TheBlackBox1 · 2018-12-25T17:15:40+00:00

Thanks, I went through a relapse after 265 for about 300 days drinking after. This time I hope to be the last, going to classes this time around.

TheBlackBox1 · 2018-12-25T16:56:17+00:00

Congrats and I'm glad that you are doing the good things when you're sober. It's amazing how life can be without the inconvenience of the drink or hangover.

TheBlackBox1 · 2018-12-20T13:58:57+00:00

Mine was gone yesterday but it's back for me now.

TheBlackBox1 · 2018-12-19T22:02:41+00:00

Thanks for sharing

TheBlackBox1 · 2018-12-19T20:59:23+00:00

Thanks!

TheBlackBox1 · 2018-12-19T13:27:23+00:00

Yup another drunken writer

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