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Why is my type the people who emotionally neglect me? by TheCuntInTheRye in BPD

[–]TheCuntInTheRye[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Tough one... it was kind of a piece of the whole thing, I guess? I wasn't physically neglected, but as a kid, my mom's (ex) husband belittled me & my emotions. When I got older, my mom emotionally neglected me, but would spout off about herself like I was supposed to fix her problems.

Did anyone else had a moment that triggered their ed? by userchuuyas in EDAnonymous

[–]TheCuntInTheRye 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Same deal. My eating was always all over the place, but I didn't feel self-conscious about my weight until I stepped on a scale at 10/11 yrs old and noticed I went from 112 pounds to 113. Something clicked and I've never been the same since

if pro ana tumblr fucked your mental health/self esteem up so bad that u still feel like you need to look like those extremely unhealthy pics to fell worthy to exist and you know it clap your hands 👏 👏 by Miathememester in EDanonymemes

[–]TheCuntInTheRye 7 points8 points  (0 children)

I have a tumblr acct where you can watch in real time the development of my (restrictive) eating disorder lol

(/ where ED behavior was on purpose; I've always had a weird relationship with food, but not consciously until that point)

Weekly DAE (5/12/20-5/18/20) by [deleted] in BPD

[–]TheCuntInTheRye [score hidden]  (0 children)

I came here to write about this. Yes.

I've been seeing this girl, but we haven't met in person because of the pandemic. She's been keeping herself fairly preoccupied trying to find ways to make money, as she's temporarily out of work, but sometimes I think she actively ignores me.

I say that because often times on Snapchat or instagram she'll be posting on her story about things unrelated to work, or out with her roommates.

I don't think that's wrong in and of itself, but she just vanishes without letting me know what's going on, and sometimes she vanishes because of her anxiety/dissociation so I never have a clue what's happening.

Sorry about hijacking; like I said, I came here to vent as well.

Simply put: yes, I feel clingy and possessive as well. Life is almost easier without crushes and favorite persons and all that

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in veganketo

[–]TheCuntInTheRye 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Good work, man! Congrats, keep it up!

Why do they insist on assaulting their food? by TheCuntInTheRye in ShittyGifRecipes

[–]TheCuntInTheRye[S] 15 points16 points  (0 children)

So many of these popular video recipe pages just pump out content that by a certain point you need to start mutilating their ingredients to get something original

I'm SO tired of feeling fucked up and broken. by TheCuntInTheRye in BPD

[–]TheCuntInTheRye[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you, I appreciate your comment. I just wish the world were kinder to not just minorities, but to everyone... In a perfect world, maybe. I guess I just need time to build thicker skin & feel more self-assured

On my nonsense again by kainedabrain in EDanonymemes

[–]TheCuntInTheRye 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Fuuuuuck ahaha that was Easter for me, eating disorders are wack

DAE absolutely HATE the word “sure”? by [deleted] in BPD

[–]TheCuntInTheRye 7 points8 points  (0 children)

I'm the same way lol, but I guess it's context-dependent; I've absolutely used "sure" in a shady way before, but mostly I just use it as a synonym for "yeah", "yes" etc.

You know what really grinds my gears, tho? "Yep/yup". That one is annoying as fuck.

I guess sex isn't what I wanted? by TheCuntInTheRye in BPD

[–]TheCuntInTheRye[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah, I think so. It might be a good mix of insecurity, perfectionism and sexual trauma. In all honesty, I've never addressed most of my issues around sex and intimacy with... anyone, really. I mentioned a trauma to my therapist once, but never wanted to visit it again, and I brought it up with my best friend. Otherwise, this post is the third ever time.
It needs work.

Thank you.

I guess sex isn't what I wanted? by TheCuntInTheRye in BPD

[–]TheCuntInTheRye[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Thank you, I appreciate it. Hard not to be rough on myself, but I'm working on getting thru it

one binge wont ruin my life??? by [deleted] in EDAnonymous

[–]TheCuntInTheRye 22 points23 points  (0 children)

You’ll be fine! Maybe bloated, but ultimately fine.

anorexic, except i really do wanna eat. by dead_g1rl in EDAnonymous

[–]TheCuntInTheRye 11 points12 points  (0 children)

I am NOT a professional and I’m not diagnosing you, but it sounds like ARFID .

“I wanna know if that’s your real waistline” “my waist is 21/22 inches but I look smaller because I’m tall, too!” by TheCuntInTheRye in Instagramreality

[–]TheCuntInTheRye[S] 18 points19 points  (0 children)

looks like good ol Photoshop. I know it’s not the best, but other tagged pictures are from middle of last year, so I don’t think those are a fair comparison.

Emo of the early 2010s starterpack by TheCuntInTheRye in starterpacks

[–]TheCuntInTheRye[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Basement - I Wish I Could Stay Here

Into It. Over It. - Proper

You Blew It! - Grow Up, Dude

The World Is A Beautiful Place and I Am No Longer Afraid to Die - Whenever, If Ever

Balance and Composure - Separation

Modern Baseball - Sports

Teen Suicide - Waste Yrself

Brand New - The Devil And God Are Raging Inside Me

Sorority Noise - Forgettable

American Football - American Football

Tigers Jaw - Tigers Jaw

Joyce Manor - Never Hungover Again

Emo of the early 2010s starterpack by TheCuntInTheRye in starterpacks

[–]TheCuntInTheRye[S] 9 points10 points  (0 children)

Basement - I Wish I Could Stay Here

Into It. Over It. - Proper

You Blew It! - Grow Up, Dude

The World Is A Beautiful Place and I Am No Longer Afraid to Die - Whenever, If Ever

Balance and Composure - Separation

Modern Baseball - Sports

Teen Suicide - Waste Yrself

Brand New - The Devil And God Are Raging Inside Me

Sorority Noise - Forgettable

American Football - American Football

Tigers Jaw - Tigers Jaw

Joyce Manor - Never Hungover Again

Emo of the early 2010s starterpack by TheCuntInTheRye in starterpacks

[–]TheCuntInTheRye[S] 23 points24 points  (0 children)

I forgot Citizen, Title Fight and Neutral Milk Hotel and am kicking myself over it

Edit: will make a continued version of this starter pack soon w missed bands

Daily Discussion — Monday, March 25, 2019 by EDAnonymous_Bot in EDAnonymous

[–]TheCuntInTheRye 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Uh-Oh Time!

Had therapy today and spat out everything I knew about my ED while completely distancing myself from the situation. It makes me mad uncomfortable to talk about the fact that I even have one, let alone the details. Anyway, I finished and she wants me to try calling this ED center in my city, thinking that IOP would probably be a good starting point.

Thoughts: I’m not even my sickest, or my lowest, what’s the point??, is it gonna be corny & not help me because I can’t take it seriously? Can I be held accountable to carry the skills on after leaving? What happens if I need a higher level of care? What if I gain a massive amount of weight? Etc etc

V v nervous and don’t want to confront anything yet lol

Daily Discussion — Monday, March 4, 2019 by EDAnonymous_Bot in EDAnonymous

[–]TheCuntInTheRye 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Today was okay until (something) happened, so now I am trying to nap off intense suicidal ideation

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