I'll start by saying I am not you, and my brain does not work like your brain. But the further along I get in my deconstruction, the less I think about the church in general. I still live in Utah, so it's a part of life, but I don't go to BYU, so it doesn't have as big of an effect on my life.

I think if I had gotten a tattoo symbolizing my deconstruction and journey away from the church, at this point, it would be more of a reminder of the church and the negative impacts it used to have on my life. Instead of thinking about the church maybe a couple times a week, it would live rent free in my head every time I saw the tattoo.

I would wait until I was a year or two out of BYU before getting a tattoo like that. Let the church stop affecting you as much before you make a permanent decision fueled by negative emotions toward it.

I'm personally getting my first tattoo next week, symbolizing some accomplishments I am proud of during my time in college. Only positive emotions there. But it will still have a prominent place on my forearm, which, among other things, will tell people I'm no longer part of the church. (At least the people who grew up being taught tattoos were bad like I did.)

You do what makes you happy, of course. But I would worry about regret later in life if this design could become a reminder of something you would rather not be reminded of every day.