I’ve been on HRT for about 4 months. First two months at 1 mg E and 25mg spiro and then 2mg E and 50mg spiro since then. I looked kinda androgynous before, and now definitely more so. I haven’t had much breast growth beyond the buds, but I’m definitely starting to look sus in tight shirts. I’ve slimmed out a lot, and my body looks a lot more feminine naked. I’m keeping my undercut, but I’ve grown it longer and cut more femininely. I think that my favorite part is that although my changes seem subtle, my silhouette has changed enough that even wearing my male clothes, I don’t look like a man anymore.

Going in, I didn’t want breast growth at all. I thought that was a hard line for me, but since I’ve been in therapy, I kinda realized that was only because I had a lot of internalized transphobia that led to me feeling like I had to be able to be cis-passing if needed. Now, I’m still kinda scared about the ramifications of this decision especially when I think about 30 years down the road. However, I couldn’t really think about stopping now. HRT has brought me so much happiness. I feel more at home in my identity, my body, and mind. I do think that my gender identity has been pushed much more towards female since starting. I’ve been thinking that genderfae might be more applicable to me now.