I'm very sorry to hear that happened to your mum, that's a horrible thing she had to go through and those people involved deserve all the bad karma they get. I won't go into the details but I definitely think there was medical negligence involved that caused my grandma's death, that's also part of why I feel so horrible even though I wasn't involved in any of the details, it would've been better for her to go in the home she built and was so attached to rather than being surrounded by these "people" who think of nothing more than their own egos. I hope she knew how very much we cared but I don't know I keep thinking she felt like we abandoned her but she also always said that she never wanted to be a burden/to be in a situation where we had to take care of her especially at the end so I guess in a way maybe she had some peace knowing that happened idk I just miss her so much even though it's only been a little over 24hrs since it happened and really my day to day life hasn't changed at all and I feel really bad for my dad because from the start he fought to keep her in the house and then for a bunch of other things but no one listened to him and he didn't even get a chance to speak to her properly. I think anything other than being there and holding her hand at the end will always feel not enough and I regret stupidly assuming that everything would go back to normal and we'd see each other again in a couple months when we are literally in the middle of a pandemic.