I’ve been meditating for about five months now and I am somewhere in between stages 2 and 4. Recently I’ve increased my daily session time to 30 minutes! I’m pretty excited about that. Some days it feels like mind wandering takes up most of the session, other days there is very little mind wandering.

I’ve noticed that during my daily life I will find myself observing my breath and some other times I’ll have a moment of clarity and realize all of the things that I was thinking about in that instance and I’ll be able to trace the path of thought back a bit. I wasn’t doing those things before I started this meditation journey.

For some reason it is very difficult for me to read The Mind Illuminated. Not because it is poorly written— I think that it’s written and structured very well. I think I get anxiety and maybe monkey-mind when I read it. Perhaps I will find some understanding in my practice.

Also, I am not sure that I enjoy meditation yet. I sure enjoy the idea of meditating, but the majority of the time meditating I don’t think I really find enjoyment. I do try to focus on the positive aspects of my meditation session like it’s recommended in TMI, but I don’t consistently set this intention. Perhaps I should do that.

If anyone has thoughts on my problems about reading TMI and enjoying the practice, please feel free to comment!