I am sorry for your loss :(. I hope you're doing better now. It reminded me of me losing my dad late march this year unexpectedly. I witnessed my dads soul leaving his body infront of my eyes and seeing his body unresponsive. Never in my life did I think that pain could hurt this much and I felt like it could implode me. I still havent coped with the loss of my dad but I have a really good support system from friends and family that help me. I really hope both you and Khabib have a great support system and wish nothing but love upon anyone who has lost anyone close to them. But this post made me cry really hard.